(= p h i k @ b o O =)

如果 - 2

2011-12-22T18:42:00.005+08:00

如果，如果能回到过去，你是否能鼓起勇气牵起我的手；
如果，时光可以倒流，我会不会为了你勇敢一点；
如果，我们不曾相遇，彼此会不会过的安生一点；
如果，我们都失去记忆，那属于我们的空缺，要拿什么来填补。
如果那时，我说带我走吧，会不会改变现在的结果。
如果，我只是说，如果。

Reminiscence.Stop & Stare

2011-11-26T23:55:00.001+08:00

I had a bumpy week. With all the minor things happened and piled up, I "sorta" collapsed.

I am still the girl that being extremely sensitive, often overthinking and suffocates myself.

But am glad with all things happen, because with that, I have the chance to remind myself over and over again, "Phik, be stronger, be tough, don't let this feeling rule your world, don't make yourself mourn over someone who treats you as no one, don't make your life miserable over something that is actually nothing you can do".

I'm on holiday now, and prolly due to that I have more time to think, and let my angel and evil side fight with each other endlessly. Each time I am trying so hard to convince myself and beat the evil part~ I doubt if I am really facing it, but at least I am trying not to let this feeling taking control~ It's in fact each time that I have to struggle within, it actually strikes me deep down.

Then coincidentally I have this feeling to clean the old stuff in my drawer, and it is like another wake up call. I found a passage that I found and kept over years, almost a decade. It had me sit down and have a deep thought.

I find myself that I have been actually trying so hard to please someone I care who apparently doesn't care whatever shit that going on with me in return. I should have notice this earlier, and because I thought its worthwhile, I just, care, and let every single hard feeling bothers me like over and over again and I have to struggle it over and over again.

Then, I stop, and stare, and realized that I am actually never pay attention to those who cares me, and those who really need my care. For these while I have been after something that I thought I should be, blindly, redundantly.

From now on, I have another mission for my angel, to remind myself of how I feel today.... To look around, and treasure those who I really should.. Not those who take me as a passerby..

My advanced birthday gift!!!

2011-10-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

I had my best birthday gift this year!!!

A.K.A

Having my Roti Face on board!!! =DDD

2011-08-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

眼前这一塌糊涂，也见证着新的伤痕正逐渐成型。。可悲。。

如果

2011-08-25T00:11:00.002+08:00

今天突发其想，想着许多的如果。。

有时 “如果”，也是一种遗憾的术语~

是真的，因为种种的如果，都是些不属于你，没发生在你身上的。

然而，为什么人都爱在想“如果”呢？

想着这么多的如果，其实有什么帮助呢？

为什么人不爱接受现实，你已活在当下了，却常常不其然的想这许多的如果。

如果说我们的如果都不再是如果，如果说我们都能把如果变成结果，那该多好呢？

傻瓜~~~

After sooooooooo long!

2011-03-12T02:15:00.000+08:00

Aha! The last post of mine was half years back, before my intern started, and now my internship is about to end. What makes me abandon my blog for so long? I don't know, maybe I can hardly find a slot for it.
Anyway, why am I doing this now? Cox my eye is opened wide now even is 2am, its been so long since I stay up till this time. Ah, internship kills, it took away my body and soul, when I'm free I would rather daydream /faint right away.
I enjoy the feelings when I'm all alone in the midnight. It makes me think a lot, whether good or bad, past or future. Tonight, I think of all these years, how I manage to get here, how much I've been through, is like watching a movie, but it's farny cox it touches the deepest part of your heart, a part which you nearly forget its existence.
Life, let the people grows through pain, gains through loss...

(__ ___) zzZzz

PhikPhik S.O.S

2010-11-23T21:46:00.003+08:00

微笑、只是个表情，与快乐无关。

This was the phrase that I noted the other day from my friend’s status, which it strikes quite hard into my heart now. I am not one who can hide my sorrow well, but lately when it comes to talk about “release” the feelings, it does makes me feel… “strengthless”.

There’s some kind of feelings bother me these days, and it makes my mood super swingy, have to say, it makes me quite emo. Any other minor incidents would activate all my bad cells.

When people ask “Why”. I can just fake a smile and said, something that really minor that messed up my days. I wanted to tell, I wanted to share, I wanted to have someone who would really understand my feelings and let me lean on. But I can’t, because deep down I know, that everything bothers me is self inflicted. You know that when you tell people, they would rather say: “ Why on earth you wanna make your life yourself so miserable, that is really NOTHING”. And if you keeps on telling, it is something real bothering people, and people would rather laugh at you.

Well, I am 22 and somehow I can make a very rational analysis to what is happening to me, and that I should not let it bothers me THAT much. But well, when something which you find no one to share with, you find that it will grows stronger each day. No matter how hard you tried to shu it away, it remains, it stays, and grows, and that really makes your life miserable.

I am not the type of happy-go-lucky girl, how I wish I am. I am really mentally drained, for trying to physco myself stop that whatever I am feeling now. There is no point, it doesn't help to make things better. More than a million times I tell myself, it works for seconds, perhaps minutes, but not for long..

I wanted to cry out loud, it usually helps to ease the woes inside, but now I find problem to cry out REAL loud. Why? Have no idea.. Come to this point that I have to express here, it means, it is REALLY bothering me.

*Pray*......

MySister'sQuoteOfTheDay : You made me curse you on your very first ketupat day.

2010-09-10T16:58:00.000+08:00

Just wanna do a brief talking here before I must go off!
My sis is burning on the dance floor~!

We went Sunway for some shopping and watched Pirahna!

Yesh I got my stuffs that I wanted and Pirahna was too short that it should be just a short film instead of a MOVIE. Besides, it's still ok for me! Hehe. I am so still darn satisfied!

The climax falls on when we were looking for exits from parking lot.

On our way stuck in the congestion, we saw this ketupat people about 5-6 biji, from 1year old baby to 60years old lady, parked their car HAPPILY into the lot reserved for HANDICAP. Nevermind, if they do think they got some kind of mental retardation, or their ages do need this kind of special treatment, they can park there happily~

Then, there was a car just right behind the row of them but few lots away moving out, and there was another Yaaris already put on signal waiting to get the parking.. AGAIN, the ketupat HAPPILY ran towards the parking lot HAPPILY... And you got it right! They asked the Yaaris not to park there because they wanted to move their car there from the HANDICAP LOT.

FOR GOD SAKE GIVE ME ONE REASON WHY YAARIS THE ONE WHO SHOULD LEAVE INSTEAD OF THE KETUPAT? PEOPLE ALREADY PUT ON SIGNAL BEFORE KETUPAT REACHED!

Do you know what answer the ketupat replied? "BECAUSE IT IS GREEN LIGHT"

WTF!!! They always have all sort of stupid dumb retarded excuses support their wrong doing!!!

Nevermind, my highlight is actually, my Sister scrolled down the window and scolded them =.=||| This freaks me out!

"STUPID! MOVE AWAY LA! PEOPLE WANNA PARK!" Awww.... My sister is like.... Soooo fierce...

Then she geramly i takutly moved on, NO WAY! We again met another ketupat family's car ahead of us and thet just stop in front of the juction to exit! They MISTAKENLY drove into the exit lane instead of the others to proceed with their-lookinh-for-parking-process. Ya they just stopped there and took their own sweet time thinking how to resolve. (They can actually drove and stop at the side further ahead) All cars have gone patient and start honking them. Then only they INNOCENTLY move their car away.

At this point, my sister almost got stroke. *This is a sensitive issue* =p

Special Dedicated to WeiQing- Our Stewardess!

2010-09-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

Please take good care girl!

We will miss you! Wait you come back and we gonna meet up again!

Protect yourself while keep your "SUCI" heart! Don't turn into lady gaga! Hehe.

Be tough when there are hard times~

Don't look back~ You have the best ahead waiting for you!

W E.L O V E.Y O U

Me and My Four Wheels, One Gear, and One Steering

2010-08-23T17:17:00.003+08:00

Been not spending much time on practicing my driving skill! But hell ya my dad always gave me surprise like just throw me the car key suddenly and ask me DRIVE. This two weeks he got me driving from my house (Puchong Dalam Dalam) to my second home (Setapak), using KL route somemore! The first time I got no prepare at all seriously, and I can feel myself shivered throughout the journey.

I found my dad a farny trainer, supposed when you are teaching your daughter to drive safe and survive on the road, he mentioned about, maintain a safe speed, and watch out. Then I will be fine. But, yesterday when i was driving on the road and met the drivers that seems-like-wanna-cut-in-my-lane-but-she-is-not-sure-whether-she-wants-to-do-it-now, my dad doesn't ask me to just let him cut in. In fact, "OVERTAKE HER OVERTAKE HER, is woman! (Not discriminating LOL)"

Also, I encountered one which is i was the one who wanna cut in others lane. I'm not sure whether it is my fault. But I did put on my signal and wanna cut in, yet the car beside just die die also don't wanna let me cut and I don't see him until he was SO right beside my car. Hehe. He then showed me his so beh song look and mouth grumbling and me (Note: the him is our very FRIENDLY ONE MALAYSIA). I still wondered whether I was wrong, but then my dad reacted in a way that I was so not wrong! He scolded back the driver and sorta like show him the F finger. Haha. See lar. I have this cute lil trainer. Bet my sis learnt this driving principle from him. Wahahaha.

Wish I can passed my driving skill soon and no more shivering on the road!!! =)

Random :

=> Kena chopped RM8 for late returning the library booksss... T>T Utar earned my money again!

=> Still plenty of assignments not completed yet and all extended to next week! Ish.

The very first day of assignment..

2010-08-14T20:37:00.002+08:00

Arrgghhh! I'm here to moan! I AM EMO!

Is the first day i started to do my assignment and OH SHIT, MY GAWD, DAMN IT! I face so much of problems which i never thought i will encounter. Whole day I've been laying my arse in front the study table, and now I dont even done any the part!

This is the one i thought the easiest! Then what about the rest! Awwww... I got no courage to start any of the rest! T>T

- EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO!! -

August- The Joy of Spending Money and Dying for Assignments..

2010-08-13T20:41:00.002+08:00

Went Malaysia's Online Fashion Entrepreneurs' Weekend today! Got to know that from Pwen. LOL. It was so spontaneous that we decided to go with my sister as my coursemates were heading to MidValley with different batches of friends. So I said i gonna ter-bump-into-them. Hehe. Anyway,it was not as happening as i thought, and the typical online boutique products caught me into difficulties of choosing my favourites. Yet, no worries....... You will never be empty handed while you have PhikJin with you. In the end, I managed to get myself one cute little handbag and a dress! I feel darn satisfied with the dress, not because it looks classy or real nice on me. Its just...... look so fit on me!!!! You know I've always tried tonnes of outfits and ended up it is just too loose on me! *sigh* SO, I AM SO SATISFIED!

One most killing of today is................ PARKING IN MID VALLEY / THE GARDEN! It was pouring rain while we were on our way to MV, no doubt it gonna be jam a little! And........... Its H.E.L.L after we got into Garden's Parking Lot. Massive car volume and even congestion in the parking lot. Everyone was trying hell hard to fight for the parking, yet, we chose to give in after 20mins of frustration. There goes our RM1 for stucking inside 20mins. Nevermind, another terrible happened was that we found no way to get in back into the MidValleyRingRoad, right away headed to Bangsar after we exit. SIGH. ANOTHER JAM.... ALL THE WAY.... In addition EVERY-FRIDAY-THOSE-HAVE-TO-PRAY, jam was even worse~! I was so beh tahan with traffic jam! But NO! I feel even more beh gam yun stucking for so long but unable to even walk into the shopping mall! Reach Mv another 25-30mins I guess, still all the reddish light indicating how full was the parking. THIS TIME, NO! We aint gonna torment ourselves, tried Cititel Valet instead. STILL, EVEN THE VALET PARKING IS GOING TO FULL TOO! We were lucky as they allow us to park. ANYWAY, it costs RM15 for first 4 hours and RM2 for every subsequent hour. PAIN PAIN PAIN!!! Don't care! We just wanna WALK into the mall! This is my day ^.^ Tiring but satisfied with the buying and yummy lunch at Dragon-I.

It's gonna be random update again! Hehe.

I don't know why I am spending again like nobody's business again! MEGASALE force me to buy stuffs!!! Furthermore I got all my evil mates that love to spend as well! LOL. Spend so much on skin care and hair treatment, but still look the same LOL.

Has confirmed that my internship will be in WCT Berhad, which located in Glenmarie Shah Alam. DUH. Thinking of caught in traffic congestion makes me sick! Get up everyday 5something AM is even worse T.T For, half year~~~~ Mommy~ MM ZAI ahhhh... Sikit allowance, how to spend for coming days? Killing Killing~~~ Hehe. But I am so eager to get myself formal wear! Tapi I don't really want to spend my money on it.... ssoooo~~~ Wait till last minute ba~ hehe.

AND! i have no idea why on earth I will be ending my semester in beginning of September with still so LOTSA Assignments I have not completed now! I have 5 assignments in hand but I have not start any of it! Arrgghhh!!! Feel sooo saddd..... Coming 2 weeks I will be moaning for this!!! =( Imma gonna rest to the max during study week I DONT CARE!!

Yeah! My mom bought me a 2nd hand Kenari which is for me to start driving during my internship! SCARY SHIT WEI! I can feel myself a lousy driver and I am so freak out each time my dad ask me to practice on a busy highway!!! I keep rejecting them. Haha. I cannot evade somehow and I still wish I can drive as soon as possible =D Can't wait to drive here and there to meet up my friends! Hehe.

Anything else? YES! I must at least open my MS Word for CM assignments to greet em goodnight! Hehe. Chiaoz everyone!

是这样的

2010-07-12T22:25:00.002+08:00

我不是公主，也不是来自哪家有钱的女孩。

但我来自个温暖的家，不小心，被宠坏了。

从小，就不会有什么人对我大小声，除了爸爸之外，但其实他，也不算怎么凶过我，因为我家人都知道，我会摆很臭很臭的脸几天，我要不是做了很过分的事，他们都不会说太多。

也许是因为这样，一直以来，我都不习惯被骂，就算是说多两句，我都不喜欢。

我不喜欢别人对我做的东西有意见，不喜欢有人在我耳边哆嗦，不可以接受别人说我错。

被家人迁就惯了，也忘了所谓的忍让。

所以，就形成了我的坏脾气，也变的倔强。

可是着坏脾气和倔强，伴着我成长，也形成了我很大的问题。

我以为，近年来我有改过了。

但直到最近，好像发觉一切都错了。

我问自己，难道我真的那么差吗?

我不知道，我不知该怎么找答案。

我只知道，我再也分辨不到，我要的一切对与错。。

IfYourLove'sOneLeavesYou..

2010-07-02T16:16:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night, I was trying so hard to occupy myself from other business rather than did as what I wrote in status – Assignment-ing. I’ve been “loitering” in FB and came across this page which pop out from nowhere.

♥ GIGI ♥ 永远的 KEN ♥ - http://www.facebook.com/pages/-GIGI-yong-yuan-de-KEN-/105788389464649

At first I thought it is just someone trying to propose to his girlfriend which I’ve seen the similar one in FB. But as i scan through, I just felt something is wrong. “老公，因为你的离去，大家都很重视我们的感情，还上了杂志呢！！”

It is just not something happy! With the curiosity and tendency to procrastinate my work, I started to stalk her stuffs. So I get to know this girl, got this relationship with the guy named Ken, who passed away by end of April2010 due to a car accident. Then she started to create this page, and writing everything about them in the blog.

But somehow I personally feel she’s a little bit extreme. They way she expresses her feelings, her loves, and her grieve over her boyfriend’s death. I saw some harsh comments in her chatbox, bout her-over-react-blog+page, bout she sound more like trying to popularise herself than expressing her grief, but also some show their supports to her. I should say I’m neutral =p

What makes me feel awkward is that, their relationship not even reach half a year while the guy passed away, and they only 18/19. Does that have to be this extreme? I should not criticise, because the fact that it is really killing to have your love one leaves, plus it is just so SUDDENLY. And maybe they really have strong bond, time don’t measure the depth of love I guess. I just feel weird as I found out more and more.

Then I am wondering myself, *touchwood* what if this happen to me? Will I be more extreme compared to her? I guess somehow it is just too terrifying to even imagine it. We shall really appreciate anyone we have around us.

When life is full of - [ u n c e r t a i n t y ] -

2010-06-17T21:02:00.002+08:00

I'm in deep shit lately. I feel so.

I'm real sucks in handling my own stress and problem.

I salute myself in crying skills. I have built in auto-activate-crying-system, I guess i cry almost everyday this week. Already 21+ years old, but still cry like it will never memalukan myself.

I've got caught into 2 trouble now, even it is the same apply to all my coursemate, but I am the significantly worst decision maker.

First thing that bother me real lots.. the INTERNSHIP from 1st Oct2010 till March2011. Got no idea why i would so stress with that? I will give you the scenarios.

1) We got the internship briefing last 2ndJune, Utar gave us brief talk and ask us to submit our form on 2ndJuly, which consist of 3 top companies that we wish to go. In the event where non of those company accept us as their interns, Utar will allocate us randomly according with the list of companies they have in hand.

2) We are advised to contact with the companies we wish to go to ensure they accepted us. Well, we have only one month time, which initially I though we wont be having enough time to get the confirmation from company.

3) I have no car. So I actually depends on my another friend who lives near to me, about which company she chose so i can tumpang her car. We ended up decided call up for many firms and apply for them.

4) Things happen to be we send the resume at the different time, and I sent too many firms compared to her. This is an uncertainty which we don't know who will interview/accept both of us.

5) Then, I got 2 public listed (big) companies ask me to go for interview, one is in JalanYapKwanSeng and another 1 at MontKiara. This 2 place is impossible for me to go without a car, and my friend that tumpang me did not get any respond. This leads me into trouble, I don't know whether i should go for the interview. What if they accept me and ended up I can't go there work without car. My reputation will be gone for ffk the company. So I've decided to ignore unless my friend got the interview call too. This is one uncertainty.

6) There is also another 2 companies which is smaller structure company confirmed me without the needs to interview. I am thinking worse come to worst i will go either of this company if end up my friend is not arranged to work at the same company as me.

I'm in the dilemma whether i should right away rejected the company's interview or I should give it a try. Which way i should put it in so i won't really offend the company (ConstructionIndustry is too small that the reputation can be gone in a sec in the industry, i don't want after graduate i tak dapat job cox of this. T>T) I am basically still pending the company's interview which i think it is very not right.

Now..... My sis ask me if my parents can get me a car before my internship starts, will i choose to go the big firm for placement. My mom insist that is better i go for a bigger structure firm, this cause she had argument with ma dad for not buying me a car earlier on. This made me feel real bad, I don't wanna be the issue for them to quarrel about. And this is another uncertainty i will have to think of now. What if they really get me a car? Then should i cepat cepat go interview now? What if end up didn't? SO!! I DON'T KNOW HOW!!

Second things that real bother me, and also the one that make me feel such a real loser, is my final year project (FYP). I got FYP briefing last Wednesday, telling us we have to choose our supervisor and our fyp topic by this sem before we go for industrial training. Hearing of this sem seems we still have many times right? NO! definitely NO! There are lecturers that we can ask to be our supervisor, but there are definitely quite a number of lecturer that we SHOULD NOT go for due to some reasons. So, I have to go for one before all nice nice lecturer been taken! I can see friends around me is like GREATSALE IN SINGAPORE. All cepat cepat choose their preferred lecturer!

And ME???!!! I TOTALLY LOSE MY DIRECTION!!! I don't know what I want to do and which lecturer i want to choose. This made me feel so sucky! Why can't I be like any others who so clear with what they want??!! Why am i always DONT KNOW? I am all stressed out! I DON'T KNOW HOW I DON'T KNOW HOW!!

Please tell me how... Please tell me... I am just afraid to take any step that i will maybe regret for it later....

2010-06-05T20:09:00.002+08:00

Sometimes,

i wonder what is the definition of friendship.

i wonder how is it like when people treats you as friend.

i wonder how we should find out whether one does take you as a friend.

i wonder if they ever appreciate a friend.

i wonder if they ever know they hurt someone who take them as real friend.

i wonder if they ever feel sorry.

Lately, few friends and I have issue with someone we do take as friend.

It started with a reason which is quite minor, yet we feel unappreciated and hurt.

But we know it is too minor that we should overlook it because we appreciate this friend.

We approached.

But we are being pushed away from this friend.

We tried to ignore, but hard feelings are growing stronger.

We tried not to find fault, but we do deserve a SORRY / THANK YOU.

We wished to overcome this so much, but it'll never work without you, taking a step forward.

A question is there at all times now, did you ever take us as a friend?

~I Did Not Fail My Exam~

2010-05-29T16:15:00.001+08:00

I PASS MY ECON!! YAY!!! ^____^

That's the end of my Year2!

2010-05-15T17:40:00.002+08:00

Don't ask me why i'm not updating my blog. I'm just plain lazy.

And this will be a short post too! I am doing this because i feel excited with the netbook i'm using now! Got this is complementary for signing up UniCoolPack. Should I thanks TMNET? NO. I deserve that for queuing that long and enduring their dont-bother-look. Haha. It's HP anyway that's why i feel so excited! At least not some other cheapo brand. Haha.

Gonna have family dinner soon! Post-Mama-Day dinner. Hee.

I'm officially done with my final! Thanks to Ms.Z now i have to worry that i might gonna fail my Econ. As I've told for now, after she marked our paper, we got only 4C, the rest are D & F, out of +/-80 students. Next sem i got 6 subjects, i don't wanna take another more. it'll kill me (T___T) Wish Utar will do something on it! I wish to maintain my CGPA as well!!

Miss all my friends! Didn't Really get the chance to meet them. Don't know why.

I got this superb huge pimple on my forehead and i don't know what's the matter with it. Grow darn huge but i can't press it or anything, it just stay there, big and red!

Showing negative sign on my account book. Hate it most!

I'm officially AMWAY member? Can you believe it? Believe it, cox my sister sign for me to get some discount from that e-spring. haha.

way to go! BYEBYE!

Farewell Cheras

2010-02-01T13:44:00.007+08:00

Last week, my sis gave me a buzz told me my mom had finalize 7^th February will be our moving date, which mean, coming Sunday. To our new home, not our own house anyway, my mom’s boss provides us the house. It’s an unknown still how long we can stay there ^^ who knows someday my mom kena fired and we all have to move our ass out off it.

I’ve been living in Cheras since I was born. Couldn’t believe that I have to leave this area where I feel so comfy to stay. The last time we moved from street A to the street behind, still Taman Muda, now we are moving from Taman Muda to Bandar Bukit Puchong 2– DALAM DALAM, next to the toll going Kajang, 10km+ away from Putrajaya. =(

I have no idea how to go KL from there? Here I can walk few steps and take either bus or cab to LRT station then I can go anywhere. There even I have car fetching me to nearest LRT station it takes AT LEAST 20 MINUTES. WTH. I’m happy to have my very own space at home finally but I am sad that moving to somewhere where so far away from all my besties! Want fetch me go anywhere also hard already =( can you sense how far is it? Want go Tesco / IOI also 15 minutes lo at least. Yee. That is why I have no feel to pack at all now.

Family and I went to check out the house yesterday, the second time since my first visit half a year ago I guess. There is no way you can be convinced that the house is available in a week and we can move in, because as I see the house renovation is only 70% done. The air-cons and the fans are all not assembled yet. Still all the wiring around the house, painting on progress, and ZERO furniture. Everything is so rush, I have to time to pack my thing cox I’ll be going back Setapak tonight, coming back Friday after class, moving the furniture on Saturday already. So where the hell I can squeeze out some times to pack my thing and clean new house? What’s worse is that my sister are not with us during we move out cox it clash with the company conference which fall on Friday till Sunday, from morning till night. I will be sien and worn out alone during that time =( luckily, we still have Ken and my sis bf to lighten our burden XD

We then went to search the shoe case and bookshelf for our new home. We are all glad that we don’t really have to do much thing for this house’s renovations and furniture, because there are already hell lotsa arguments between my dad and us in just choosing SHOE CASE and BOOKSHELF. He’s been grumbling at us what’s the point we chose a RM 800 shoe rack, as if we are so rich. In fact, we are not even considering it! We were just LOOKING at it man! Ended up, we only bought a shoe case, after 3 hours we searched through the furniture shops.

Anyway, you can hardly find a table after we move in. As the kitchen cabinets and TV cabinet, dressing tables will only available on March, due to custom made take time and the order is placed late. we can only buy coffee table and my study table after all furnitures are placed cox hardly can estimate the place available, so, the only table available is the dining table and Mahjong table so far ^^

SO DO NOT FORGET ME FRIENDS. DO FEEL FREE SO FETCH ME OUT FROM JUNGLE! HAHA.

2010-01-25T16:08:00.007+08:00

We might not been through many things in life together.
We might not understand each other very well.
We might not know each other for a very long time.
I see bond between us. I see the common interest we share.
I guess somehow our bond is too weak to overcome the gap we're having between us now.
Somehow you find her as your closer friends.
Somehow she's the first you turn to whenever you have something to share.
Somehow there is some speechless moments when we're together.
I care. I mind. I feel bad.
People says i shouldn't care that much.
People says we are already 22, no longer like primary school need to stick with one with so called your besties.
People says we should accept, friends do come and go.
Still, I care. I mind. I feel bad.
I'm working on it. To overcome this hard time. At the mean tine, i do still need a little more courage, and support., also some brainwash. ^^

is another semester!

2010-01-17T21:11:00.005+08:00

I thought I wanna update my blog before I back to setapak. But yet my time is till so pack till I didn’t manage to update. Even though I don’t know I busy what la. Haha.

So here I am, typing this blog as I swore to myself. Class will start again tomorrow, after 3 & ½ months holiday! Can you believe it? I spent my holiday with just earning and spending money. I feel kinda lost now. I miss my home now, my sister & my parents, my doggie – MacMac, and my hammie- Ling Ling & Long Long. I am seriously missing them now. I feel weird here. ^^

Yeah~ I wanna introduce my hammie here! LingLing&LongLong~ welcome to Liew’s family ^^ hee. I bought them a day after x’mas actually, I wanna post them here for so long……. There’re stories after I bought them home. Never mind, lazy to mention =) they are cute! Superb cute can! Roborovski can run superb fast! I never manage to grab them, can only TRAP them in order to bring them out. FatLing is another Gulu2. Spend most of the time eat and sleep! Hee. I am drowning in love with them! I MISS EM’ SOOOO MUCH NOW!!! Should have bring them to Setapak!

advance anot?

superb cute can!

good friends ^^

this is fat ling!

ci bek sleeping style!

Also! I wanna intro another new family member! PATPAT! A babygirl after I decide by winning “bao jin dap” with ken. It is actually born from A.E.I.O.U la. You can find it at anywhere. Hee. She’s daughter to KenKen, adopted one la cox KenKen haven’t married yet. Hee. Cute isn’t it? Ken loves her smile very much. Hee.

Went shopping with mom and sis for our bedsheet stuff, from there I learnt the differences of the quality of the quilt cover and stuffs. I also just know the existence of QUILT ! I got no general knowledge. Hee.

OUR 2ND STORY BOOK ^^

BYE BYE!! SEE YOU UTAR!!

Two is Better than One

2009-12-20T22:27:00.002+08:00

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
And finally now, believing

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one

2 0 1 2

2009-11-21T23:09:00.004+08:00

Hey people! I am typing with my laptop now! You must be thinking "Ceh, what so special typing with laptop, want show off meh?" right? Yesh I want to show off! Show off what? Show off that I am typing this with "WordPad"!!!! Oh gosh, can you believe this?! My laptop don't even have Microsoft Office now! SO CIPLAK!!!! My laptop spoilt 3 months ago and i like get it fixed few weeks ago, after the long long procrastination, my sis' bf reformat for me. F.O.C but man! Its an empty window I have now. Microsoft pun tak ada! I am having hard time to type now!!! Tahi betul! I also cant run the program even I downloaded my Windows Live Messenger. Totally lost contact with a lot of buudies now! SHIT!!! soo shit!! What's the use of this laptop? Online lor. Watch drama lor. PERIOD. Chiu~

By the way, it's not my concern today! Haha. My concern is, I watch 2012 today! Yesh! I watched! Don't say I am outdated! Bluekz! I must say 2 thumbs up for this! Days ago I got to know lotsa comments bout this movie, extremely different feedback, some say very nice some said not at all. For the critics, they said 2012 is just simply put all the natural disaster together, earthquake + valcanos errupts + tsunami = 2012. Some said they were waiting the movie to end form the very beginning. Some said, it was over exaggerating. I personally think what screened in the movie will definitely be real someday, might be even worse. How sure you are that the movie is exaggerating? You can say this now because you have not come accross this day, and if you were to face this, you would not be able to watch this movie and critics it anymore. We are all doom that time. Even though we are not seeing all this happen, but we are witnessing series of the results we got from the global warming and stuffs. All the unpredictable amd mass disaster that happen around the world these days. Malaysia is safe, for now, but who can guarantee we will never have earthquake in our country? NO. NO MAN CAN GUARANTEE THAT. But it's so obvious that most of the nations are still not aware about that, even if we do, we are doing nothing for that. Include ME! Haha. Because we are having this thought always, "one man can't save the world." 2012 might not be the doom for us, it might not happening, but it's a warning, for us. It got nothing to do with the religion / prdiction anymore, it's the FACTS that prove all this. For your concern. I don't wanna die so fast.

OKAY! Enough my serious speech! Haha really can't express well using my BAHASA INGGERIS. Need more tuition.
I am not sure whether i should cry or feel happy for myself, I am getting into the condition that I can shop with anyone, anywhere, whereby last time I will only shop with my sis + she's the one who choose some for me and let me choose one.
Lately has changed! Argghh, I know, it's not a good sign actually. I am in the mood of buying new things at all times! I just spent few hundreds last week! And today! I went out with monkey to catch 2012, we did some window shopping and some surveys for my kasut sekolah. Hee. Yeah, I HATE WINDOW SHOPPING! What for I wanna WINDOW shop if I can't get the things that I heart? I will truly frust if I can't buy it. The first item im into it was the heels from Charles and Keith. I just got one from there last two weeks and now i see another one. Haih. I did not try on it cox i will surely buy it if I did. I keep grumbling and grumbling then i stepped into STADIUM. $%@#$@#... I saw a bag from Nike which i like a lot! I like the colour so much! Fine, I can't buy cox it's not in my list. I am not a rich girl. Then i grumbled again for the bag. Haha. Luckily, it doesn't last long cox somehow the bag is too big for me. I pray pray and pray, I don't want this shopping feelings anymore. =)

playing with the caps =)

OH also! i'm here to promote a cafe / restaurant called LITTLE BEN in Pavilion, right beside Pizza Hut, same level as food court. It is very kelian man. Each time i pass by the restaurant also empty one, so today i decided to give it a try! Hmnn, well, the food is actually not bad, quite tempting, but very least variety, good environment cox no people there haha, fair pricing for me =) GO TRY ON IT! It's really kelian~

my little chicken sandwich and little princess drink. haha.

Also, i smell something not good today, for several times. Got people is producing some poisonous gas. LMAO.

I bought an umbrella from Watson, because it's pouring while we were about to leave Pavilion. STUPID. After i get the umbrella and back to exit, BABI! This level of hujan umbrella also no use! Luckily the umbrella is quite chun and i like it, Disney - Winnie the Pooh printing which only cost RM10.00. ITS CHEAP. Hee. End up, gotta settled down in Coffee Bean and late for dinner with family. I am really hot tempered cox i was not song again! haha. Luckily my monkey got patient with me! Haha.

I actually have more things to share, but you know what? I'm done with this! I've been typing this 1.5 hours ago! Feeling sudah chiaoz. Haha. So i chiaoz also la! Way to go! I am having great day today! =)

1,2,3,4

2009-11-12T21:49:00.002+08:00

Give me more lovin then i've ever had.
Make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
Tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
Make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
Barely gettin mad, im so glad i found you.
I love bein around you. You make it easy, as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
There's only one thing two do three words four you, i love you.(i love you)
There's only one way two say those three words and that's what i'll do, i love you.(i love you)
Give me more lovin from the very start.
Piece me back together when i fall apart.
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
Make me feel good when i hurt so bad. Best that I've had. I'm so glad that i found you.
I love bein around you. You make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

PLAIN WHITE T'S-1,2,3,4
lovin' it

Dad 54th!!

2009-11-08T22:15:00.002+08:00

Today is my dad's big day too!! We're the scorpio! Yeah! Say WE LOVE SCORPIO! ^^ We went a restaurant called "Duck King" in Jaya One / Palm Square. It is right next to UTAR PJ. You can reach within 50 steps?! O.M.G. Can I say I envy the students in Utar PJ? It's such a nice place to hang out after classes / during break! So much of cafe, pub, etc etc..
We, the students in Setapak Utar can only stucked in this packed campus, the nearest would be the cheapoo "Alpha Angle - Jusco"! "See also lost appetite jor." Need transport to get there some more! I want one Palm Square next to Utar too! Destroy KTAR!!! WOAHAHAHAHA!!!! Never mind, next year got "Wangsa Walk" already. Yet, still we need transport to get there. *sob* And probably we will still stucked in campus during break time. DESTROY KTAR!! WE WANT ENTERTAINMENT AFTER OUR CLASSES / DURING BREAK! WE DON'T WANT TO BE GAMBLER (refer previous blog if you don't get what i mean) AND GIVE PEOPLE A NEGATIVE IMPRESSION ANYMORE!

Ah, the food is nice ^^ but its slightly expensive la. If there is one Palm Square right next to Utar, I sure pk very long ago already. haha. This year, we got my dad a "pant", because last year we got him a "shirt". You get what i mean? Got content inside one. The gift which you'll never afraid of getting people a wrong present --- $$$$!!!!!! haha. This pant is Macho right? Too bad, can see, cannot wear / use! Haha. We spent a little time on the ang pao + card this time. More seng yi. ^^ My mom is being grumbling saying that we simply made hers but we put so much effort in my dad's. she said "Your dad ge pant got belt one, why my one dont have? Your pin sam!" She's just so cute lar. Haha. I love my mom.

Oh yeah~ I bought some skin care product from "Skin Food" yesterday. i was feeling so happy for getting that. Now, still! Haha. i got the "lettuce cucumber face mask, salmon eye patch and the black sesame mask" There are still a lot more! Got watermelon la, lemon la, rice la, you name it, they have it. Don't you feel all the products sound so YUMMY! I feel like my face want to eat it so much. Haha. I don't know whether it works, i just feel like trying it so much!

I saw hole in my pockets! Darn! The $ i got from my birthday is not enough for me to cover the $ that i gonna spend on the Saggie & Capricorn's babies. My family's already chopped me off. First my dad, secondly my sister who's fall on 27th Dec (accumulated from last year) & my mom 29th Jan and bf on 20th Jan, and 4 of my besties in Dec!!! I NEED SOME NEEDLES AND THREADS!!!

I am so so so in shopping mood now!!! So So! Even though I get a number of presents for my brithday, I am still have a long to-buy-list!

1st : Pair of sneakers for my Utar life next year! I am bored with my Mickey already. I want to get a new one. Is like a kid need to wear new thing to school every beginning of the year. Hee. I got an idea which to buy already, I saw it from magazine I GUESS. From Nike / Adidas / Reebok I have no idea. I have a feeling that it is actually a basketball shoe after i surf their website. haha.

2nd : New jacket! I forget this is in my list until i saw my old-jacket today! I want I want!

3rd : The pendrive that I've been saying that i gonna get it soon! It is not expensive but my bf has been telling me that it's not in the necessary list as i already got three 4GB pendrive. That's is why i am just plain SAYING! But you know what? I swear i will get it before my school starts. I've been saying this for months. Its okay to spend RM60 to pamper myself, right? =)

4th : Its repeating the story already. A LOT OF TEE SHIRTs! So boring to wear the same thing to school. Moreover there are pieceSSSSSSS of my current Tee was degraded become my house Tee due to some reasons. I am so lack of it! 5th, 6th, 7th.............................. MANY MORE!!!! BUT MAN, I WANT TO SAVE $! I wish CNY is coming soon! Then i got extra income again.. Haha. I am just so materialistic huh?

Till then, I HATE MONDAY!!

Flying Without Wings. The 21st Wings.

2009-11-04T21:27:00.018+08:00

Today, I will be nannying all about my big big day! =D

Well, I didn’t have any birthday party for my big day like I said I am lazy to organize. But still, I spent my birthday with tonnes of laughter!

Hereby, I want to thank those who wished me / celebrated with me / handed me a big present! Lurve ya loads!!! =*

I had my first celebration with my family and close relatives at a seafood restaurant in PJ last Saturday.

This cake is adorable! Isn’t it? THANKS MY LOVELY SIS! I don’t expect she would really buy cox it is considered expensive for me! It proves that she’s actually not being stingy to her sister! Haha. It is a customized cake. Any idea why it is ladybird? The reason is simply just because my sister likes it! Arrgghhh.. is my birthday, isn’t should be something I like? Hee. But of course I still like it a lot lot!!

Other than my big day, it was also ken’s big day, cox he’s not only MEETING THE PARENTS, he is also MEETING THE RELATIVES, and being the pet in the zoo for everyone to focus on. =)

pretty sis and me =)

the ladybird darn cute! i wanna keep it!

my big 21!! =D

my god sister and brother! is younger! not elder!!

we can be very mean to each other sometimes =D

still, we can be soooo close often!

my cousins =)

the nervous him. kee. ^^

happy family! thank you my lovely family!!=)

I got an anklet from my mom instead of the gold key, cox I know I wont be wearing it, and also cash from sis and relatives! THANK YOU ALL ESPECIALLY MY FAMILY WHO MADE THIS FOR ME! MUACKS~

nice anklet!!

all the $$$ and prezzie from babie =*

And my baby gets me a necklace, photo, and a hand made card! I got to know he’s been planning all this ages ago. I knew he’s been saving money hard to get me the present with filling his stomach with a lot of Maggie mee =( sorry, my bad. But I am really touched! Especially the photo, I thought it would be just our big head photo…. I am so so so touched!! *sniffed*

I see all the great efforts in it! I just love you so much!

this is the production of maggie mee =D

The photos tell our stories =)

The card is very nice cox you hand made it! =)

i saw loadsa LURVE!

The necklace, I know you’ve been worrying that I will not like it the day you bought it! Soh lou! I want you to bear in mind! I love whatever thingie you get / buy for me. ^^

The next day – Sunday, today’s plan is the outing with ken in daytime and dinner with Doris babe and then countdown with my besties and bf =)

my wild mushroom terhalfed! breakfast @ dome KLCC ^^

Anyway, I got surprised! This is the most surprising moment I ever had.

He brought me to Korean Village, Jalan Ampang to have lunch with him. Supposedlt is just me and him; I never expect anything more than that. But hell ya! I saw Pei Wen’s car once I got there! I was being so so so happy stupidly for bumping into her at that place! I called ger numerous times to ask where she is and why she’s there. I was dumb enough that I believe her saying she’s joining her family! I was lagi dumb when I saw Joxin standing outside the restaurant, my mind was still telling me that “wow! I bumped into Joxin as well! What a coincidence! I bumped into Joxin as well!” I even knocked the glass like soh poh calling her and said wave my hand! Not until Joxin reveal everything with her poker face when she sat down.. as if she knew everything! Haha. Then I only know they planned all this with my bf!

kita semua~

thanks girls for the prezzie!! =)

thanks my monkey!! =*

So hereby, I wanna say thank you again for Pei Wen, Xiao Qin and Javen, Joxin who celebrated with me and buying me such expensive present! THANK YOU!!

At night we met Doris babe, also, some of the Cochreaneans! Oh ya, also VE and her big bully CW. Then I was surprised again that ken actually contacted Doris and Nicholas for this! I got no idea at all! I had a roller coaster day! *winkz
It was funny when the performer sang the birthday song which not for me but the table which next to us! I guess we only realize when we sang half way? Fish dao~
Again, thank you for those who attened together wit the presents! Mun Yew, Jason, Nicholas, Wei Qing, VE and Chee wai, also the good guy, ken =D

the only picture i got! the rest is with doris babe! babe! i want the photos!

Then meet up with my Poh Poh Genki and Ultraman for a drink in Bangsar, Telawi Street Bistro! Hee. We occupied a real large space with only 4 of us! Hee.

sweet dao~

kita 4.

is us.. again?! =)

Overnight at Poh Poh place, didn’t sleep! Cox she torment me with helping her editing her assignment! Sui dao~ but I also didn’t really help her eventually, cox my brain stucked, and she was distracting me with her busy chatting with Ultraman! Hoho.

On the exact day of my birthday! Hee. Went out with dear in the afternoon, we didn’t spend much time alone these days tim. Hee. Had lunch at Tony Roma.

we got little world of our own ^^

blue martini~ taste like medicine! yucks!

apa alfrego pasta! banyak nice!!

apa beef beacon sandwich! lagi nice!

small complimentary cake for my birthdae ^^

sexy back! walao =.="

so lots so lotsa Fo0d!! O.O

Not to forget to mention this! I had my heels spoilt since Saturday! I risk my life with wearing the heels since Saturday noon! Cox I didn’t go shopping centre so I cant grab a new one and I didn’t back home so I cant change a new one! I was wearing that to Pavilion with many of weird eyes looking at my heels and my duck walking style. So sia sui! So I got this in Charles and Keith! But babi, it hurts my feet! And cause me to be very meng zeng again and of cox my dear the one who suffered T.T my bad again..

nice anot? =)

Had dinner with my babes in Garden @ 1U. bad place! Cheated by the photos! I got no photos to upload, is all with Poh Poh because she forget to bring my camera to me!!!
Thanks Veann, Poh Poh, Ultraman, Gui Gui and my baby!!!! Hee.

socks pun boleh? boleh!!! haha.

BIG card from veann!! ^^

BIG card from Poh Poh ^^

Its getting short cox I am getting lazy to type~
Just again~ THANK YOU FOR ALL!!!! =D

happy things!

2009-10-22T22:11:00.007+08:00

Tee hee…
I worked for almost a month already! Wow! Masa terbang! Wakaka. I really work you know! Really work one! Not much time to play games already! But still I game many rounds of the FreeCell, expert level of Minesweeper. Pinball and Hearts I also master a bit geh. XD

I got my result last Wednesday! Eh... Can I show off a little here? Just let me okay? I believe in future I won’t really have the chance to show off already. =) I heart my result! Even though is not the best among all, but I am quite pleased with it. I did put effort on it okay! Though it was still 100% last minute revision, but is 90% oil that I put onto the 100% last minute work. Kee.

Change chang~ is sad that my family didn’t really say a thing.
“Congrates~” ini aje. No present. Sob. Hee. My dad lagi sui. “Got improvement lor. Eh, how come your math so cha? Measurement get B only?” siong sam =’(

I cut and straighten my hair finally! I am so cute now! Haha. Not perasan. But really. This stylist doesn’t like to cut layer on straight hair one. Plus I told him I wanna keep longer. So can you imagine? The straight with a little bob feel hair. A very cute flatten mushroom hair has become!!!

Oh ya, last Monday was Ultraman’s birthday, I had dinner with her at “BraItalian/BraItalia – forget its name!” Anyway, believe me, you wouldn’t wish to join us that night. As we became Mr.Bean when we were to place an order! It is an Italian dining place; their menu was in alien language for us. Forgive us for being katak bawah tempurung. Haha.

“Which are the beverages?”
“I saw ‘mineral water’ here!!!”
“Ya ya I saw it too! Here here cappuccino and latte I know it too! Let’s just order this la, we don’t know much bout what other means… haha.. XD”

End up, we ordered cappuccino and Macchiato.

“Where is the main course?”
“Neh, here here here, got “grilled” word, “lamb” and “beef”…” “That’s all we know? How to order?”

End up, we pointed one which I saw there were “ham” and “smoked” word. I felt it would be definitely nice. The waiter said we made a right choice too! * winkz

It's very fragile~

While we were asking them for recommendation, we actually can’t get what he said. So we again become Mr.Bean, “just get me this that this that”. Hoho. Hello Phik Yin, is time to improve your lousy English!!!

The food was scrumptious. I don’t know if I was taking beef, I cant, so after I was home I ask for mercy from guan yin niang niang. XD

CUTE!!!

the ham thingie XD

the one we just "get me this and that"

The drinks… haha. If you see the photos below, probably you will notice that how hard we were trying to show you the contrast between the cups, Ultraman and the cup! Well, Macchiato should be in such a decent size, but we both sweat when saw it. Ultraman finish it in just “Oops I terdrink all in one sip!” kesian~

HAPPY BURSTDAE!! =)

I am turning into 21^st soon!! Haha. But I am not going to have any party. It is very troublesome, I lazy to organize. And, it is very expensive to do one outside. Hee. I gonna lala walk into the casino like a child someday! Very soon! Very welcome to check my I.C =D

* random - i heart this man! *

im no long M.I.A

2009-10-10T20:32:00.002+08:00

Hey people~ I’m back!! I’m blogging!! Yes I am!! The last time I blog is right after the semester starts, then now I blog again after the semester end! After so looooonnngggg~~~~ give a round of applause please???? Haha I know, who cares~ I CARE. Hee.

Okay… I don’t know how to start.

I had my last paper on 30^th September 2009, and then I started my work on this Monday! How kesian am I? So now got any idea why would I blog again? Yesh! Because I am doing this in the here, the office to kill my boredom I have here. I thought of going somewhere else to work, to explore, to realize the potential in me =) , but end up I am here, stuck in my mom’s working place. Why? Because of the pay again,

I need $! $ to fill the hole in my pockets, my dad keep mention bout checking my account to know hw much I’ve spent. Terribly, I really too much than I should in nowhere, 3k+ at least.
I need $! To buy a laptop, if possible. My laptop spoilt again~ this time cost RM 200 over. SOB.
I need $! To buy the stuffs I’ve been murmuring even in the dreams that I wanted so much! A lot a lot! Nice heels, sneakers for school, dress/ skirts, T-shirts for school, handbag, yada-yada~ and I wish to get Ken and I lotsa stuffs! For now watches, mobile phones, umbrellas, slippers are in the list. I mean, get us a couple one! Haha! Of all that come true, I bet he’ll runaway, else people will throw a disgusted look on us. Hee!
I need $ too! For all my besties’ prezzies~!

So what I’ve done during this perios? Sum it up, would be boring. Hee.

For first half of my semester, my days were pretty free. Went out quite lotsa times which I find it would be boring for you guys to know.
Then mid term started and all the assignments started to due, I hate this most! Have to stay up for studies and assignments? Sad case. the pimples’ party time!
Then final arrived, I pray, I can get what I expected. =)

I’m officially home! 3 months holiday ma! Haha.

What’s next? Can I mention a little bout my monkey ken? XD
We are just reach our 7monthsary, it sounds like a very short while for a relationship, but we have been through more than you can imagine. A lot more.
But so far so good I guess? Apart from all the tiny arguments we had? =) you wouldn’t wanna know how we fought. Haha.
We both have our own character? Sounds so yeng right? Yeah. In fact, we both have temper. Anyway, he said he used to be very gentle, now I train him to be as yeng as me. My bad? =) but he is great, he tolerated with me a lot.

I must still improve myself! Though I improve a little of my temper? But gosh, lately it turns to be terrifying, is either I don’t throw, or once I throw I lose my mind, I’ll do things that…… you might wanna bring me to doctor? Haha. Anyone can teach me how to be “peace” all times? Hee.

I’m glad that we accept each other in every way, we don’t mind to do anything gross in front of each other like, we fart? Haha. And we play crazily, for like we use the dirty socks to wipe on each other’s face, and sometimes our dirty legs. Haha.
I love explore things with him, like we tried new foods every time we go out! So we actually spent chunk of $ in it! And that is why…….. I gain 2.5 kg! =’(

Anyway, I watched “Surrogate” today! Eh, just don’t put too much of expectations on it, you might feel the disappointments. I saw the “Gamers” concept in it.

Okay la. Tada!

i am having headache

2009-07-01T22:41:00.002+08:00

is july already!!! wow~ is week 5 already! shite. what i've done within these few weeks??? =S

i am having headache now. real headache. since yesterday afternoon. and then i slept from 5pm yesterday till 8 something. and then i slept again around 12 till today 11 something. but man~ i am still headache! pain!

i wonder why people can keep their blog updated? i feel so reluctant to do so.

today veann and genki came over to find me. =D with genki's heavy make up~ in Setapak? is kinda inappropriate. hee. i miss them. very vry much! i have lesser chance too meet them since i moved here. because is far faraway for them to meet me. *sniff

headache......

my life is just so peaceful.... till i dont know what to update..

tada~ XD

2009-06-18T22:24:00.001+08:00

tell me what is going on..
tell me why..
tell me i aint that stubborn..

suffocated

2009-06-15T17:43:00.001+08:00

i am currently sitting in ICT.

feeling suffocated

measure 2 kills. T.T

late at night

2009-06-15T00:38:00.007+08:00

i neglected my blog again! its begging for some attentions. hee.
so here i am. Basically, i have no idea where to start my story if i were to update. nvm, just another short and brief updates.

i officially moved out!! yeah~ finally. let me show you some pics of my room. hee.

i am currently sitting on my bed typing this blog. waiting ken, people went for drink with house mates and dump me here. =(

my bed

my room is clean and tidy. dont you agree?

next highlight

let me intro my cute teddy, ken ken. this name is vry funny i know. hee. bf bought me this in our 1st monthsary.

my superman~ =) actually is just my clothes on it. hee.

he looks smart. positive?

i sounded very in love with ken and everything sounds so right, right? i do in love with him =D we are doing very fine but we'd still face what a couple would face. and we are getting over it together and hopefully we are the right one for each other! have faith. *winkz

next highlight

what is this creature? can guess? chang chang~ is the baby hammie. hee. looks fragile and vulnerable enough. like me. lol.
and ya~ fyi, one of my hamster, mulumulu had rested in peace in 29.05.09.

next highlight

this is our xue xi tai du for this sem. chun? all the kaki judi.... you can see all the QS kaki in poker place in FB.

final highlight

MAH SIN WEI'S 21ST-BIRTHDAE =)

what is this? yat pet si~ know who did this??

the lousy people - chen yoon lee! turn a cake into piece of shit!! XD

again, the guys

and the girls~ my smile very fake, cox i was having severe stomachache.

ah mah~ happy birthday! go get a bf now and immediately.

shitty result

2009-05-26T21:16:00.004+08:00

Guys! I blog again! Wow! It is so amazing~ haha I syok sendiri only. It’s a random blog again~

Yesh~ today I woke early in the morning, happy happy go purchase a wardrobe (a cheap one) for my room together with my daddy. Then I gonna head to my new living place to clean it up.

Ding dong~ message alert.

Thinking, “eh who wake up so early and text me? My bf efficient sangat?”

“hey guys, result released, can check already” – from the seafood pot, tan joxin.

“%^^@$%#!$@$%&^” – my instant reaction.

Why tell me?!?! I sill have few days to play before school reopen! WTH.

Since she told, it was so impossible for me to take it as nothing.
Once I reached Prima, I straight headed to Kenneth (my landlord)’s room to check my result……

…

H U A L A M A K ! ! ! !

Where is my three point! So sad can!!!!! This sem my result drop gao gao. Very gao that one. I wish I can pass my site surveying and maintain my 3 point at least. Sad for an hour I guess. Then decided not to sad anymore cox.. COME ON! I deserve that! Fine~ yeah I deserve that for overestimate myself again and underestimate this final!

I told my bf, Next sem, I must get 3point, otherwise, I ask him to dump me. Yesh! I mean it! So I must get my 3 point. I told this to whole world now. I swear I will make it! I MUST! Hopefully…. Teehee. I gonna Photostat this piece of shit result slip and stick it on my wall. I have to choice but to fall in love with Bahasa Melayu as i am having Malaysia studies next sem! =.="

for those who manage to maintain their result or get a better score. congrate ya really! keep up the good work.

for those who get the sad result as i felt, we ga yao together! okay? =)

So close case! I wont mention and please don’t mention bout my result anymore! As deep down I still feel quite upset! Haha

Oh ya~ I went to clean my room today! Did I mention? I am officially moving out to Prima Setapak, Genting Klang, Setapak. From next Monday onwards! That’s the room I mentioned =) I felt quite reluctant of moving out already lately. Because! My kepala is so big whenever thinking of gosh I have long list of benda to move along! Not until today I get the key and I cleaned the room! I feel as if I have my own space? And wow I am independent already? Fake enough. Haha. Oops. I forget to take the picture of my room and show you guys! Besok la I will take the picture. I am going to my room in GK and settle some stuffs. =p

This is the picture I took with the girls. It was a very random outing as we decided for a drink when we saw each other online! Is doris who suggested lar. I met her thrice in a week. Small life cycle I have =p

I post it, because~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ vee yee said she darn dark after being man in Redang. Yuhoo~ are you going to kill me? Hee.

right or wrong

2009-05-25T13:11:00.000+08:00

I heard this from a friend few months ago.
There is this person who dumped my other friend and started with another person.
At that moment, I felt sorry for my friend even though we are not close.
Few minutes ago, I saw this photo of the one that dumped my friend together with the “another person”.
There is few seconds that I feel with anger is rising up.
Imagine my friend when she sees this, it will be truly hurt.
And there is few nano seconds that I almost want to curse this person who dumped my friend.
What the hell after you dumped this person and yet you move on your life, and left this person behind with all the pains and scars?

But wait, another thought come in.

Who am I to judge this?
Positive.
I should not and I have no right to do so.
And don’t forget that I used to be this bad person who everyone will pin point at.
Now I am feeling all these, I felt as if I am scolding for what I’ve done in the past also! Haha.
It is true that I was such a bad person before.
But now I can say its another story? Haha.

After all, I believe in karma.

I hope the one that being hurt will eventually get the true love.
The one that chose to let you go, I hope he/she wont regret in his/her choice.

3D2N @ Pulau Perhentian

2009-05-21T22:38:00.011+08:00

Pulau Perhentian

Right after the last paper, we moved our ass to Pulau Perhentian! It is quite pathetic that my camera had almost abandoned throughout the trip so I have only little photos can upload. Wait till I got all the photos form my friends kay. =)

We took the bus depart from PWTC bus station at 2130. Its very scary can. The bus driver at least speed 120km/h for certain period on the narrow roads. We tried to sleep but I guess non of us sleep well because it is quite bumpy and the seat not very comfortable lo. Except Kong Bing lar. He’s a pig. Haha. He can sleep anytime, anywhere. Same thing happen on our way back to KL by taking the van provided by Bubu Long. I am not exaggerating but you can actually feel you are on the roller coaster all the while. If you don’t like the description as if you’re taking roller coaster, then it will be you taken the ecstasy. Your head will just keep on shaking and swinging. Dizzy cukup! Worse than taking a bus!

Basically, we spent most of our times for endless snorkeling session and gambling session. Tee hee. but we all got no photos during our snorkeling session, sad sad sad. And I basically skip the second day. I got no photos for our second day.

Throughout this trip, I can draw a conclusion lo. I am afraid of the ocean! The deep blue sea! During the second day of snorkeling session, I felt as if I will die! I felt suffocated in the sea. I felt a bit disappointed towards perhentian or bubu long, as the coral that isn’t that nice, dull, less species. The fishie there also not much lar. Defeat my purpose of going there. =)

after we struggle for one whole night in the Mahligai's bus =( so chan.

say hi to BuBU =)

this is quite nice though =)

i personally feel cheah pei wen looks the best in here. lol

cheers~

the guys

this is the girls who have some similarity with me. we got almost the same hairstyle? almost the same height? almost the same 38ness? the only different i guess is she is far much more cleverer than me. very san fu to build up this bond with her. sadly i am moving out soon! haha.

we risk our life to get there. very nice see view!

this is him. the one that i found =)

without me T.T

is this nice? we woke at 5 in the morning to wait this. but the beautiful sun is hidden behind the cloud. yuin wong.

so fast! bye to BuBu!!

the picture of the day

okay. i am lazy to type anything anymore. short of pictures short of wording. this post means nothing. i have gap with this blogging space already lar!!!!! hee. hope i can catch up soon. ^^

once upon a time

2009-05-21T21:30:00.010+08:00

Okay! Is time to spare some times for my phik@boo’s blog! I actually feel pretty reluctant to update. But no wey~ if I continue to abandon this blog I will just officially turn it off which I don’t wish to see it happen! Hee. I truly lack idea where to start~

Shall we turn back the time to April 2009? Alright. Let’s get back there.

TOPIC#1 : HOUSE MODEL for CT2

This is the stupid model which used up at least 3 weeks time. Spend endless night in Melati Utama. Only slept around 4 in the morning every time we did. Tada~ the result is satisfying! Let me show off a bit okay? We get the highest score eventually! Hee. is truly happy at that moment. Eh hem. But I contributed a little only actually.

This is my gang and our model sekalian.

My group.
ME – the Bangladesh which then promoted as skilled worker =p
PEI WEN – the Architect
KONG BING – the Contractor who then demoted as Bangladesh.
From this, you will know who actually contribute the most. Hee.

This is the sakai group who worked out the model together with us. =)
Ah mah, sushi, and yoon lee. Hee

These are the random photos that taken.

Gotcha! CHEAH PEI WEN AND CHEN YOON LEE. I said I will reveal this to everyone. Hoho.

This is kei kei and Maggie. You cant believe that they are actually a pro in teasing people. Even me! Always let them zat till I hao nga nga (speechless).

This is yan yu, the President List and the top in my class. Mind this, she is a year younger than us. How sia sui I am?

We are obviously discriminating their model. Haha! The ken is a bit dunno what happen =p

This is my masterpiece =)

The rest of the models.

time to sentuh

2009-05-04T21:27:00.002+08:00

yesh~ time to sentuh my blog.

just to inform, i am not dead yet.

currently busy with final~

weeks before busy with house model~

by the time i wanna update my blog my laptop kena virus have to reformat.

now, i dont know from where to start my nanny story~

after final~ yesh~ next Tuesday my last paper.

pray for coming SITE SURVEYING and BUILDING STRUCTURAL SYSTEM's paper~

then i will spare out a day to update everything that i've missed out to share with everyone~ ^^

till then, i am healthy =D

done sentuh.

days in MU

2009-03-23T13:23:00.008+08:00

Venue : Taman Melati Utama? Platinum Victory 5, 9^th Floor, Which unit?

Time : 20 – 22 March 2009

Purpose : Construction Technology 2’s assignment – House Model

Hypothesis : can at least complete 80%

Conclusion : hypothesis denied. In fact, progress real slow.

Yup ^^ I spent my weekend at my course mates’ place.

DAY 1 :

the groups with ah mah, ah yoon and sushi ^^

our group with phik phik, my darl darl pwen and gyea

forever win and sure win ^^

the good guy who i like to bully! now no longer T.T

ah mah! you got caught! tao lan! read newspaper =p

we cut this benda whole day long.

we are plaing with the grass

went to GK to have dinner with GK-kia, thought can eat something special, who knows - STEVEN'S CORNER O.M.G

man!! cheat people only with ju lam yuk. HAHA.

that night, we started to feel we were all worn out. yet, we insist to stay up! till 4.30 am. all faint! ^^

you know why i fall in love with MU's scenery? if i live there i can spend whole night long looking at this scenery andlet my mind float.

DAY 2

you know why my battery used up so fast? you lar cheah pei wen! hoho

irritating hair. haha

ney ney and darl darl. menjijikkan. our eyes~ O M G

where is sushi?! cant manage to get up. haha.

these 3 days were packed yet we all enjoyed with the presence of gyea, pwen, phik, yoon yoon, ah mah and sushi ^^

no more pictures on this day, cause we all were blur~ haha.

yup. they said i like went there to live one whole week while i actually just overnight at their place for one night. is just so hard for me to be siu sa. haha. going back for dinner with family because i know they miss me. haha. i got to know that ah mah missed me that night! because i were not there, less noise was made and it made her feel so sleepy while doing the assignment! haha. ah mah needs me!! she will kill me if she read this. hoho.

DAY 3

reach MU at 8 something in the morning and dragged ah yoon acc me swim =) all in sleepy face.

i cant believe i can swim better than him =.="

pwen & yoon. he is so fat hao man with his S-pose. not seductive okay.

after brunch, back to our position and cont our assignment. guess what. this day is just so unproductive as we all feel reluctant to do, feel dizzy and blur. so end up, we proceed with some part of the ass, then slept, rest, played games, eat, let the mind float.

ah mah is tao lan again. hoho.

sushi looks pretty tired as well.

pwen feel shy? must be kidding. haha. she took a nap also!

when can we finish up this assignment?

is this good man mopping floor again. faster marry him ba girls. haha.

There are always pros and cons in each of the option you have and it always cause me to be dilemma. I’ve been struggling whether to stay in Genting Klang (GK) or Melati Utama (MU).

MU is a place whereby offer the lower rate of rental with bigger space of room and nicer study environment nice scenery fresher air which I personally fall for it, but when you got no car, you got only very few options to settle your meal and it is not yummy at all! Within these 3 days, I’ve settled my meals thrice in mamak stall and once in kelian hawker food stalls. Cannot cannot cannot! I will vomit! I am someone who real fussy in eating. I eat means I eat, I don’t eat means I don’t eat. You cannot force me eat something which I dislike. In fact, there are too much of foods which I dislike. ROFL.

Back in GK, a place where their rental is much more expensive, not so good study environment and provide not so good air ventilation which I feel kinda bik chik everytime I get there. But they have food, lotsa of food. So how? How am I gonna decide? Oh I actually deicide after spending time in MU, I really knot compromise with the food issue. Haha.

what the hell. endless mid term! i have 3 tests ahead before finals! kill me! tomorrow! B S E!

I had a real bad bad bad worse time in life few days back, I cant tell how bad I felt. It feels real bad, I felt as if I was at hell. But im glad that hope is still on my side. I hope there’s really rainbow after the rain, and dawn after the dark.

let love be the source

2009-03-23T11:38:00.001+08:00

Love is being happy for the other person when that person is happy
Being sad for the other person when that person is sad
Being together in good times and being together in bad times
Love is the source of strength

Love is being honest with yourself at all times
Being honest with the other person at all times
Telling, listening, respecting the truth
And never pretending
Love is the source of reality

Love is an understanding so complete that
You feel as if you are a part of the other person
Accepting the person just the way he or she is
And not trying to change each other
To be someone else
Love is the source of unity

Love is the freedom to pursue your own desires
While sharing your experiences
With the other person
The growth of one individual alongside of
And together with the growth
Of another individual
Love is the source of success

Love is the excitement of planning things together
Excitement of doing things together
Love is the source of future

Love is the fury of the storm
The calm in the rainbow
Love is the source of passion

Love is giving and taking in a daily situation
Being patient with each other’s needs and desires
Love is the source of sharing

Love is knowing that the other person
Will always be with you
Regardless of what happen
Missing the person
When he or she is away
But remaining near in heart at all times
Love is the source of security

Love is the source of life.

2009-03-19T22:05:00.001+08:00

i hope you can hear me

hope you can hear my heart, is calling you

enermous expenditure

2009-03-16T15:28:00.001+08:00

Okay! Today’s lesson, let’s catch up with phik’s life *winkz

Finally my lappy is back!! When was the last time I use it to online!? Can’t recall! Haha. after spending one whole bloody day last Saturday, stucked in Low Yat Plaza I finally managed to find someone to cure my lappy =) I hate Low Yat, I always get dizzy each time I step into that place. And I was exhausted! After spending 4 hours under the sun to complete my practical and assignment, spending around an hour in 2^nd floor of Low Yat searching for a shop which actually located in 3^rd floor! but I met this very sweet and cute guy who fixed my lappy =) he looks decent and he was being very polite too. He offered a much cheaper price compared to others and I truly believe that he is not those main main kind. He looks pro. Haha. yesh! My lappy is cured with only RM 190. But now I found out that my battery also spoilt already =.=” I bet it tends to leave me. Sigh. Don’t don’t don’t don’t! no no no no! I have no budget for a new laptop now. I can foresee coming few months I will spend few thousand already and I will let you know why in coming stories.

Last Friday! Yes! Back to last Friday, my blog is always unorganized! Teehee. My course mates and I went to Matta Fair. And we don’t know we have to pay to get into that fair. Or else, we wont be going in a gang with 7 people! Bak chi! Though it only costs RM3 each person. Haha. but it’s a fair right? Why want cheat our $? Hee. This is not the point. The point is, AFTER SOOOOOO LONG BEFORE WE WENT MATTA FAIR, struggling which chalet to stay, package or no package, flight or bus, I proudly announce that : PERHENTIAN! I AM COMING! BUBU LONG BEACH! I AM COMING! Hahahaha. Damn happy can. So finally the perhentian trip is on! 3D2N in bubu long beach, Pulau Perhentian! And guess what? ONLY RM 450 covers all transportation, meals, accommodations, and activities! SUPERB CHEAP can. We never take Bubu into consideration because it is damn expensive without that offer! Hee. Happy happy~ but I truly hope cheap package wont get cheap service, cheap meal, cheap management, cheap accommodations and cheap transport. I kinda worry cheap thing no good. Haha. but don’t care as we already make full payment! Haha. my dad said we were stupid to pay full payment on the spot. Later agency lari we all mampus. Haha.

So yesterday I went to Mid Valley to grab my swim suits. Hee. I was having difficulties to find a swim wear that I can fit in, with my kid figure. Haha. I finally get one, after discount RM130. reasonable price. But now I get to know something from a friend, its just so coincident that I bought a same design but different colours swim wear with one of my course mates. Of all kinds of swim wear, how can I just grab the same piece as hers? I cant imagine we are wearing the same swim wear in perhentian? Or in GK swimming pool in future? Like twins? O M G. I haven’t confess to her. Haha. don’t how will she react if she knows it. And estimated I will spend another hundreds to buy stuffs for perhentian. Bet you can sense I am damn anxious can. Still have few tests before final arrives! Wake up Liew Phik Yin!

I am moving out to Setapak next sem, officially get permission from dad, so count count my expenses will shoot up. They told me I will at least spend RM700 a month. Exclude my rental which around RM300 – RM350. bei ngei.

Then, if there is no obstacles, I’ll be moving to Bandar Bukit Puchong end of this year, which it should be called as Puchong Dalam Dalam. San ka la until one extend. But I will have my own room, which I gonna spend 2 days a week since I am moving out? Haha or maybe that time I already move back home. Which mean I will have to spend some money to décor my room. Dizzy dizzy. Have to start budgeting which I hate the most!!

world vision

2009-03-06T13:15:00.005+08:00

Wow. After n years, I am finally typing with my desktop again!

Yesh~ today’s topic. I finally “world vision”!

This story back in few months ago.
There’s this random night, I read a random blog from a random link.
Then I saw this people talking about the world vision.

I find that this is kinda interesting and since I am doing nothing good in my life. I decided to sponsor a child together with my sis! Although it takes us thousand years to settle things, yet we still make it! RM 50 for a month to sponsor a child. People like me who always spend money on no where, its surely affordable. Better than I use to eat play spend. so do you ^^ So this is the child’s profile.

*clear throat* he seriously look kinda healthy. We agree that I look more like people who need this RM 50. haha. But don’t care lar. Im doing something good ^^

How’s my life been going on?

Busy with assignment and mid term. Don’t mention bout it.

I have no laptop to use because my power supply spoilt as a result of kena electric shock. Haha. Everytime I connect it to my laptop will have hangus ge smell.

Lee Hom is coming on 2^nd may! I want to go his concert but it’ll be difficult as it falls on my final. T.T

I probably will move out end of this year to somewhere kampong area in Puchong. I am so unwilling to move. T.T

random : hak sei lei

Others are going on pretty well. Living in quite healthy state for now. Tata~

一篇男生都會知道,女生都會感慨的文章

2009-03-01T16:05:00.001+08:00

男人要永遠感謝在他20多歲的時候曾經陪在他身邊的女人，
因為20多歲的男人處在一生中的最低點,
沒錢、沒地位，沒房、沒車、沒事業，不能獨立又不想依賴，掙扎著彷徨著，尋找自己的位置！
而20多歲的女人卻是她生命中最燦爛的時候；
男人要永遠感謝在他20多歲的時候曾經陪在他身邊的女人，
因為二十多歲的男人還很“懵懂”，
而二十多歲的女人卻很燦爛；
二十多歲的男人處在一生中的最低點，
而二十多歲的女人卻是她的大好華年；
二十多歲的男人很不知珍惜，
而二十多歲的女人最需要被珍惜；
二十多歲的男人自卑到極點所以非常自負，
而二十多歲的女人卻在努力建立他的自信；
二十多歲的男人不懂愛，不會愛卻需要愛，
而二十多歲的女人需要被愛，需要關懷，卻要付出呵護付出關懷；
二十多歲的男人沒錢、沒事業，但有欲望
而二十多歲的女人空守著自己的韶光不再；
女孩子二十歲左右是她最美麗的年華，這時她的心地最善良，她有點成熟，又有點孩子氣。
男孩子在二十多歲時遇見了一個年紀相當的女孩子，那一定要珍惜她，因為這個女孩是用自己最美麗的年華陪他走過了最暗淡的日子！！！
女孩只要陪他走過，女孩會永遠幸福下去~~~
當女孩對你撒嬌甚至無理取鬧時，請男孩不要煩惱女孩，因為她們有道理這樣，你們沒理由煩惱，你們要做的就是很理解很理解，保護好這位天使，等你們到了30歲，正當你們最美麗的時候，也請你不要放開這位曾經的天使！！！二十多歲的男人不知道珍惜,不知道感恩.
當他們三十多歲的時候,事業有成,成熟穩重.
開始嫌棄曾經陪伴過他,但不再年輕的女人.
有人說男人其實是最專一的.
因為從20歲到80歲的男人都喜歡20歲左右年輕漂亮的女人.
這是個笑話,但也是個事實.
有人說現在的年輕女孩都很現實,眼中沒有愛情.
稱著年輕嫁個有錢的,一輩子也就有個歸宿了.
男人有時好比洋蔥,要想看到洋蔥的心就需要一層一層去剝。
但是女人在剝的過程會不斷流淚剝到最後才知道，
原來洋蔥是沒有心的...

再见

2009-02-28T14:35:00.001+08:00

原来再见，已是陌生人。

i dont wanna stay up no more

2009-02-22T13:07:00.003+08:00

i am so addicted to McFlurry. buy me a McFlurry and i will give you a big =D

it makes me worn out 10 times than usual to stay up study!
it's so not productive, inefficient and ineffective!

S.O.S

sayang sayang

2009-02-20T13:56:00.002+08:00

Today I decided to spend some time to pamper my lovely blog. Let it feel im still here. Tee hee. I have no class today! YESH! No class! Again and again! Class been cancelled off! Tomorrow no class also because Saturday class only on alternate week! Monday no class again cox yesh again I want to mention I memang no class on Monday. Seems like other than showing off how my lecturers love to cancel class I got nothing better to tell. P.O.S.I.T.I.V.E.

I just share with you guys with the random thoughts I have with me now.

I am SAD BLUE. Nope. I am BLACK. After the practical for site surveying, I am tanned. T.T like ah bu ne ne already!!!! Moreover I have this uneven colour tone on my skin. Very ugly can. Like dirt. Haha. is really really ugly. I don’t know what to do as I very lazy to do anything to save it. Then my mom as if I want to change course lalala~ I aren’t that rich till can throw 10k into ocean and waste my precious time (although I always do). But she’s really sweet for worrying that I might become a pure ah bu ne ne. I will be. No worry. It takes me centuries to be even just a little bit fairer. I better make it to be QS, else it is so not worth to become ah bu ne ne. haha

so this is why i am tanned.

I have course mates that claim that I look kinda sad in this sem. Haha. don’t know why? I cant figure it out either. Other than becoming a little bit more quiet compared to previous sem, I got no different wed. but it isn’t the reason that make them have this feel? No idea then. Haha. Even I do have some questions that bothering me, but I keep it safe and sound in class. Hee.

I actually skipped a lot of things that I used to share in this space, but I just feel too reluctant lately for all these. After all, my life isn’t that dull, I spend quite lotsa times with my goodie-buddies lately but tak kan I gonna post here to report everything. Haha. though I tried to do so.

I will have mid term start on next week. So again, I SHOULD BE STUDYING NOW. But hello~ what am I doing??

ok. finish sayang my blog. =)

Everything Ends Before It Ables to Move On to Another Chapter

2009-02-17T12:37:00.003+08:00

Watching your back
Counting your footsteps
Witnessing the distance between us
There’s no arithmetic expression can be formed

Confronting with this crossroad
Doubting which route should I take
Too many barriers ahead
Hinder me from stepping forward
And so I take a step back, an arduous one.

Looking at the mirror
Sneering at myself
Again I’m the coward
Who rather used up the remaining courage to run, than to face.

Everything is a blur
Tonnes of questions filled my mind
Too much of uncertainties
Stop me from finding an answer

How you invaded my world
How you play a role in my heart
How you become the reason that decide my day to be bright or dim
How you brought me closer to you

Our story is like a mystery
Our memory is like a dream
You came, then you left
Together with a piece of my heart

Now you have her
Or maybe just have not
Whatever it is
You live well without me

After all, I’m just a little too not over you.

2009-02-11T22:14:00.001+08:00

im emotionally being manipulated

Embarrassment

2009-02-10T22:09:00.001+08:00

LOL. A brief update then I’ll ditch my blog again. Haha.

I don’t listen to lectures as you know. Don’t know why. There’s a mirror at my ear. Reflecting 100% lectures that I’ve been trying so hard to absorb.

I sit at the very back of the class today, listening music in a way that wont get caught. Then suddenly course rep who sit in front of me ask me a [?], then I forgot I was listening to music and answered him with the volume that I can hear what myself saying. I finished answer the question and adjusted myself back to the comfort zone, only that I realized everyone was staring at me. Friends around me were chuckling at me. Then only I knew that I just did something embarrassing. They told me I spoke too loud until the students at the other end heard my voice and lectures halted for few seconds cox lecturer and everyone else were staring at me. Haha. Cukup fish can.

Come on! Laugh. It should be a jokes you know! Just I narrate in a serious way. Haha.

Bye~ oh ya. Happie Valentines everyone in advance! Even though there is nothing to do with me. Haha. I attended my cousin’s wedding last Saturday! is an “I-DO” wedding. Hee.

p/s: wishing they are doing fine. God bless.

2009-02-02T21:39:00.001+08:00

Hey people! Happy chinese new year! Today is lunar 8^th already. But is never too late to send over my regards! *winkz.

I read through everyone’s blog, found out that everyone was busy for house visiting and reunion! Haha. Mine wont be the exceptional case of course. Other than did some shopping on the 1^st day of CNY. Tee hee.

How’s the market this year everyone? Is the sum of ang pao satisfying? Mine is ok. Better than last year. But still wish more will come lo. Hoho.

Lol. I don’t have the feel to blog out of the blue. Haha. so, tata~

H A P P Y - M O O - M O O - Y E A R

p/s :
why kakashi died? I don’t want him to die.

Ultraman! Chang ju! hee

2009-01-21T21:31:00.003+08:00

Yawn~ this is the first day I took a siesta ever since I started my school. Feel darn hang fuk lor.

Let me think think what has happened for the past few days. Hmmnn.
Nothing much.

Today I nearly threw tantrum in school lor. Haha. don’t know why my mood just out of hand suddenly. Moody for around erm half and hour gua. But it wasn’t a serious one. So everyone included myself still very safe. Tee hee.

I seriously miss my sem 1 lecturers and tutors VERY VERY MUCH. After meeting all my lecturers and tutors for this sem. Sigh~ hello~ UTAR, you really so poor until cant afford to hire a more experienced lecturers ke? Where is all our fees gone? Sigh. I don’t want to talk much bout that already. Gik sam. Yesterday we got a tutorial, and I name the tutor fan ban William Hung, more terrible than the Malay lecturer. Trying to teach us the meaning of mean sea level, mean = purata, sea = hai (mandarin). … … …

Yesterday was our ken siu, oops, he doesn’t like this name. okay. Rewrite
Yesterday was our Mr Chuah Kiean San’s stepping into another stage of life! OLD OLD OLD! Haha.

We very good okay. After having class from 9-5.30, in a totally worn out condition, we still move to KLCC to celebrate his birthday! Haha. and me, the Cinderella taking the risk of getting scolded as the next day still got early class and I still went out. Tee hee. Kua jor a bit lar. But appreciate it la pet pet ken. Haha.

And there’s this cute ks, brought me and Yee Hong to Avenue k’s secret recipe to buy ken’s cake instead of KLCC’s Secret Recipe! We were like from north walked to south. Ti-red betul. Haha. it took bout half and hour and guess what, when we back to Mdm Kwan, the rest already finished their meal, and me and Yee Hong who famous in tortoise eating style were forced to stuff everything everything into out mouth ASAP. As Mdm Kwan’s people like want to chase us off. Tee hee.

So where should we go to cut the cake? Since nobody want to drink or eat anything anymore we cannot walk into other restaurant to SIT! So, end up we were there! The recreational park where those have-no-where-to-go couple gathered.

saw that not so nice punya shite? i ask the person to draw, cox chuah kiean san always find toilet to shit. haha. he loves to shit. hohohoho. but please i dont mean to ruin his image. haha.

is the gay again!

is the princesses with the tai gam. haha

HAPPY-21ST-BIRTHDAE~ make a wish okay. dont fat hao XD

突然很想你

2009-01-18T22:35:00.001+08:00

五月天【突然很想你】歌詞

突然很想你。

詞曲:阿信

最怕空氣突然安靜最怕朋友突然的關心

最怕回憶突然翻滾絞痛著不平息

最怕突然聽到你的消息

想念如果會有聲音不願那是悲傷的哭泣

事到如今終於讓自己屬於我自己

只剩眼淚還騙不過自己

突然好想你你會在哪里過得快樂或委屈

突然好想你突然鋒利的回憶突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲變成兩部悲傷的電影

為什麼你帶我走過最難忘的旅行

然後留下最痛的紀念品

我們那麼甜那麼美那麼相信

那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經

為何我們還是要奔向各自的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你你會在哪里過得快樂或委屈

突然好想你突然鋒利的回憶突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜最怕朋友突然

最怕回憶突然翻滾絞痛著不平息

最怕突然聽到你的消息

最怕此生已經決心自己過沒有你

卻又突然聽到你的消息

2009-01-15T22:10:00.003+08:00

Phew~ guess what?! I will have CNY holiday starts from 23^rd Jan till 2^nd Feb! this is what I call Fui-Yoh~ apa benda. I just finish my 4 months holiday and here goes another holiday! =.=”

I feel excited at the first place but now I am not. Imagine there will be tonnes of replacements after that. Ti red nye~ And got assignment due one or two weeks after that! I will be real busy after CNY.

I have no class for tomorrow as those people like to cancel class. SO FREE ~ and Monday I meant to be no class. SO SO FREE~ Rofl. For the month of Jan I only study for 6 days I conclude that! TOO TOO TOO FREE~ I am still on holiday =D

Let’s talk bits about my lecturer today who gave us real heart attack and JOKE FOR THE DAY.

Did I mention that I have 2 Malay lecturers this sem? I am not racist but I really not used to let Malay teach me already. The subs are something to do with QS but not for BM or Pengajian Malaysia or whatsoever to do with our lovely country. I am quite worry with that. But one of them is Prof. and I have certain level of confident towards a Prof.

The other is the one who made me suffocated today.
The person has some problem to give lectures in front of the class.
The person hardly can complete a sentence fluently in English.
The person confuses us with the confusing explanations which probably the person doesn’t even know apa dia sedang cakap.
The person as a lecturer doesn’t know whether we need replacements for CNY’s holidays. Zzz.

Hope the conversation below can help you to understand how we exactly feel.

The person is showing us a slide (I cant really recall 100% bout what’s inside the slide but more or less is like that lar) with some examples of the buildings that using IBS (Industrialized Building System).

“… bla bla building (Danish System) is built in bla bla year and bla bla building (French System) is built in bla bla year…”

Me : “What is Danish System?”
The lecturer : “oh! Basically IBS has many different kind of system and Danish system is actually one of the system of IBS which is used in previous time.”

(I was looking forward for more explanations) but,
THE END, the lecturer skipped the slide already =.=”

I don’t think we look that dumb lor. Obviously, we, the students there all know that Danish System is one of IBS lor. What I want is you explain to me how Danish System works and I was about to ask French System and what’s the different between both systems lor.

Actually I got many more to question her, but in the end I chose to keep quiet after considering that if I shot her too much she will beh song me and gives me terrible marks for that subject lor. Haha.

We pay to rely on ourselves.

We had a tiny celebration at “Yo!Sushi @ Pavilion” for Sushi whose birthday falls on tomorrow but she’s rushing back to BBQ wor~ hmmp.

The girls with birthday girl.

The gays with birthday girl.

Us with the girl.

Me and Sushi. I feel myself like more excited than her. Haha.

Sushi! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND YOU ARE OLD! We dedicate to you! *winkz

P/S : few days, few hours, few minutes or even few seconds can turn one’s life upside down tremendously. I guess what I anticipated has come true. Butterflies butterflies butterflies~~ you will never know my little secret.

very first day of school

2009-01-13T21:58:00.001+08:00

It’s the first day of school! Teehee.

I am destined that I’m unable to break my record forever. Should say one of my resolution for this year is never ever tersleep / terfish in the class anymore. But still, I took a catnap during class today. Not purposely I swear. I’m just mesmerized.

This semester I have 5 subjects. And 3 of the subjects contain the word of “building”. Now I know my life will click with building that much. Have to start build some bond with it already. If not unable to be a pro. Hoho.

Utar’s food is getting worse. Getting spensive and the portions are getting less and its taste yucks! I will never eat utar food unless I am having a severe gastric. If not, no way, don’t waste my money. I mentioned I learn not to complain right? I am not complaining kay? Just making some statements. XD

How come I suddenly feel utar is so crowded one? The canteen is packed 24/7 already. It cause some problems for us to find seats as our gang has around 10 people. =.=”
And how come suddenly so many utar people dyed their hair already one? Is it because I dyed? Lmao. Its so not setapak-utarians lar. No more that nerdie look. Haha. but seriously the people look more seafood already. I declare myself as abalone okay? More high-class can? ROFL.

I told ya I will have my sem1 lecturer teaches me in this semester right? Very chun lo. Its just the first week he already want to cancel class for tomorrow. Tut-tut. I can see my future already. Hoho.

We plan to Pulau Perhentian for coming semester break! Lol. We just started our semester, I must say we really have “long vision”! Lalala~ I don’t care I must make it. I don’t care I don’t care. If you, my dear course mates happen to read this. Bear in mind can? I want to make it! Haha. though I’m the one who initiate it, but lend a hand okay. I am a poor organizer. I will push every one of you to co-operate with me. Otherwise, you TAKE GOOD CARE of your gegendang telinga ya. Yesh~ I mean it! =)

I have butterflies in my stomach. Is my little secret again. LOL.

this conclude my holiday

2009-01-12T16:19:00.003+08:00

Okay. I’m having real bad headache now, but no way, I must blog this as a remark for my holiday.

I have no class today so I am still having my last day of holiday. (can u imagine?! 4 months passed just like that). But I got up 6 something in the morning to company my friend to utar complaining bout some yada yada probs that utar brings. Lazy to bla bout that. I only know I’ve sit there for more than 4 hours waiting some no-solution’s solutions. Sigh. I thought utar is a place where Chinese gather, and I expect “efficiency” from them. But I forget, somehow, we are in Malaysia, and they are partially under government. So no point for putting hope on them. Just wish they wont cause too much probs to us.

Today is my last day of holiday, can you believe it? My holidays end! it feels like I only showed off my 4-months holiday to everyone yesterday. There goes my holiday. Basically, I worked for 3 months, from 01-10-08 till 31-12-08. I got 12days h o l i d a y s before my class starts. I thought for the 12 days I can be totally dead from day till night. Night till day. I can abandon everything but live in my sweet own little world. But no, I am only dead for a day throughout the days. So pity, I’ve prepared myself so many brainless things to do for my holiday. I can’t manage to finish it all. T.T I still have around 50 comics waiting for me to read, twilight’s novel and some DVDs!

And I realized for 2008 I only studied for 3.5 months! The rest I was working and playing and holidaying! Logically, I should be darn rich now as I worked quite a lot this year. I thought I can save some money. But oh no, where is the 4 digits figure in my account. I am a lousy financial planner! Where I spent my 4k? I left 500 in my account only. >.<” don’t evil me to spend anymore. =p the previous sentence is dedicated for my evil side. =) ang pao ang pao ptptn loan I love you sooooo much~ come come my baby~

People like to talk about their accomplishments in 2008 and resolution for 2009. Well, I don’t really know what to talk about for this. I don’t have a clear cut of idea of how my life has been and how it is going to be. I guess I am just so immature still, don’t really think too much bout how and what to do for whatsoever achievement. This is bad huh. I should start thinking. If to talk about the goal of my life, for instant it should be contented with what I possess and just simply being happy? It sounds lame. But I am learning not to demand so much and complain life.

I have a good beginning of life though! But shhzz, its my little secret, only those who close to me is allowed to know. Tee hee.

I am having class tomorrow!!!! =O no no no, have to get up so early again that kills.

I’ll be seeing one of my lecturer that taught me in sem1 again~ the one that used to mumble at himself, 3hours class he only mumble for 1hour+. He told us if he’ll teach us in sem 2, he wont distribute any notes for us anymore and we, jot down everything he says and he’ll give us open book test in final. I hope he’ll forget what he said, cause this is not a really good idea. he hypnotizes most of us during his class.

Arrgggg~ I am really headache now. Maybe after school starts I will have more to blog about. *tut*

s o r r y

2009-01-03T23:36:00.003+08:00

sorry guys. for being so itchy switch my blog to some private mode last few days.
due to some reasons. haha. anyway. i switch it back to public.
but i have to tell that i wont blog so often already.
as i really really lazy to blog.
i am having one week holiday before my school starts.
which mean you can actually imagine me being dead at home.
lalalalala~ i love the rainy weather! so nothing can get me out from bed.

choc factory / red mushroom

2009-01-02T16:36:00.000+08:00

Happy new year everyone! I bet everyone enjoy their xmas + new year celebration. Since it’s a brand new year, I’ve decided to make some changes to my hair again.

Dada~ I dye my hair! Wow~ It takes me ten tans of courage to take this step.
But is a quite miserable outcome.

I told my stylist I want colours that more low profile. More to brownish black. A feeling that hardly can see the changes but can tell there’s some changes.
But professional always refuse to follow his customer’s instruction.
He dye a more to red instead of brown colour.

And I truly miss my black hair now. Once and for all. I will not dye anymore. Even if I dye, I will choose the color myself! Definitely!

Not to mention last week he just gave me a child’s haircut.
At first I draw a conclusion that I look like red mushroom.
Few seconds ago I guess I found a better description. I look like that main character in Chocolate Factory! Neh, that celaka funny ah pek! Jonny Depp leh. Ouch~ so pain! Heartache! Ouch!

It cause my sis and I laugh like mad!

Haha cappie cappie~ its ur show time =O

can i emo?

2008-12-21T22:55:00.004+08:00

can i emo?

can i?

read back all my previous blogs in friendster.

again, memories that kill.

i always psycho nicholas to stand up once again.

but what about me?

in fact, we are the same.

F A I L U R E

the little differences are,

i chose to evade. you chose to fall deeper.

i chose to let time heals. you chose to let memories kill.

i accepted there will be no miracle. you are waiting for miracle.

p/s : i am so afraid to recall all these pains.
i dont want to taste it another time.

come on! let's stay tough together *Winkz

bad dream, nightmare

2008-12-19T22:57:00.002+08:00

she dreamt of him again.
he get a girl to company him on xmas eve. duh.
she chase after him but eventually he's gone from her sight.
again, she cried like mad cow in the dream.
as usual, dream bothers her like it always does.
she doesnt understand, she has nearly forgotten the feeling of how much it hurts her when he left.
why must the god once again recall everything, in dream.
what interpretation she can make?

please, let her goes on her life.

im broke

2008-12-17T22:55:00.004+08:00

I am SO BROKE. Officially announce that I am really SO BROKE. My sis and I were certified today. T.T

Today is me that want to shop. My sis is just as my consultant. As usual, she spent. A LOT. She bought, even BOOK for a pant and Sunday we have to collect it at Lot 10. =.=”

The amount we spent today is equivalent to the price of a 16GB ipod Touch. Why suddenly ipod Touch? Haha nothing, just that I got a friend dying to get that, so I know the price. Seriously, we never expect we will spend so much. And now I am anguished from the guilt of spending so much. Lagi shyiitt is that I don’t feel satisfied with what I’ve bought. Is like a dream. =O

Nevermind, cox I felt more excited with other stuff now! I want to go school! Oops. I want to go University! Haha! Because I get myself new bag for school! New pencil case! New uniform! New shoe! Ahhh! I am so excited with that! Like little girl attending new school. Hee. Within a month I have to back to schooling life already! But erm, have to study that lar. This is not so good. Hmmn. Have to sing “no stress” again.

Oh I finally intruded “Ninja Jones” today, their environment & food is nice! Recommended. I know many of you went there, I still want to recommend, can? But I find that I really got no fate with “Ninja Jones”. Last Saturday I went there, they were not opened yet. Fine. Today I went. ^^ they are opened. Finally. Sadly, I don’t know their business hour is SO CACAT. We reached there approximately 1330. Then we took our own sweet time to dilemma bout what to eat?
After so so so long, we started to enjoy our meal. *tut-tut*

“do you want to add something else? Last order.” We like
“what?! I beg your pardon?! We just started to have our meal, what do you mean by last order?!”
“oh miss we are closing at 1430”
“…”

So now we know “Ninja Jones” working hour is from 1200-1430 then 1800 to don’t know what time. Sigh.
We have to rush and stuffed everything into our stomach as fast as possible. we are more pro than the ninja like waiter there. blink of eye we reach, blink of eye we finished our mean and blink of eye. we left. sigh.
Not so enjoy lor. But I can tertaste that their food is nice. =)

the background nice? nice? IS NICE.

so exaggerate lar their set. i dont know how to start. spend few mins to dilemma again.

this picture is funny. the woman oppo me's pose is obviously telling you that how stress is she after spending so much. hoho. dai sei.

finally got chance to take picture ^^ with my friend i mm hou yi si ask people take picture for me lor. haha

I want to cut my hair! I guess I’ve decided to dye my hair. Though, still is dilemma. =|

freedom

2008-12-14T21:42:00.007+08:00

i had a busy week!
maybe it wasnt one for you, but definitely is for me.
i used to be a cinderella, in case you dont know. my phone will ring until the speaker also spoil if i got home later than 11. but that was erm. quite long time ago. last year i guess.
this year is slightly better! but i wouldnt go out often cox my dad will be grumpy.
but this sem's holiday is like "woahhh". my dad changed! i got more freedom~ maybe is cox of my not-so-bad's result! *winkz
i was so afraid to get whacked by dad last few days!
as i went out on Monday with my girl, Tuesday for mt's bd (reached home one something in the morning, should have get scolded already but not) , Thurs movie, Friday yum cha (back 12 something in morning should have get whacked to but didnt! again! Miracle~), Saturday outing, and today! shop with my sis! i am going to broke, very soon.
woahhh~ on Friday when i was about to tell dad i was going out after dinner, i felt like im a little girl did something wrong. slowly tell him what i gonna do later and tml, when i was about to apologize for going out so frequent these days, he stopped me and said "go lar go lar..."
=O is this a sign that my dad is giving me up? doesnt want to care of me anymore? aww~ fan jin.
haha.

i took this picture during yum cha session with my girls. LOL. NERD + KAMPUNG GIRL = NOT SEDUCTIVE. hoho.
oh we went "fun ok", a cafe which placed in Taman Connought. it's not bad i guess. food is not bad. but! is a big cross for you if you wish to go somewhere where you can find peace! imagine, even i feel it was far too noisy! and, i have to shout~ SHOUT~ AND SHOUT! very san fu to talk!

Zanmai Sushi @ The Gardens. initially i wanted to go Ninja Jones. it seems that it is a very nice place to makan! but it is still closed yet when i get there! %^!%#%$%!@. what time already?! still close? apparently, they never respect customer that had to eat in the morning! hng! i dont care! Wednesday i am going to destroy your place! Bluekz! Zanmai is quite ok, after all. their sushi is nice~ ^^

oh i watched "The Day The Earth Stood Still". i rate it 3.75/10. if you are going to watch, just dont put any expectation.you probably feel better. tee hee.
i wanted to say! Mid Valley and Pavilion's decor for xmas not very nice lor~~~ i mean, last year nicer!

review

2008-12-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

After soooooooooooooooooooo long, AGAIN~ I finally watch Twilight. Very nice, im always outdated.
I know everyone rate this movie as in like 11/10?
After all, it’s nice.
Romantic? Guess so~
But I don’t think Edward is THAT yeng and leng chai till THAT EXTEND lor. This is very subjective. Haha.
I was actually looking forward more towards some action stuffs when Edward was trying to save Bella. So once my friend reminded me, it’s not an action movie. Its LOVE STORY. Rofl. I forgot.
Is fun to have vampires as my family, just if they don’t kill me, can fly here and there. Very nice lor.
I think it is actually nice lar, just that my mood seriously ruined before the show. So I wasn’t in the mood.

p/s : I’m not emo, I’m seriously hurt and humiliated today. Hey, feel glad that you still able to ruin my day. I do give a damn. Now. I could use all sort of words to scold and curse you. But I wont. It’ll spoil my image. Even if I deserve it, even I know I wont put the blame on you somehow, I will still hate you. It doesn’t help anything, I wont feel better, but this is how I feel, at this moment.

banana's big day =)

2008-12-10T21:30:00.005+08:00

we had a celebration with banana yesterday. eh hem~ banana the one who planned it. pai seh. hee.
kua jeong lor. yam purposely drop me an order ask me dress nicely! eh hem~ as if usually i wear like kampung girl! how sad!
since she say like that. i cannot do things that mempersiasuikan them lor. on monday, i had girls outing with genki, veann, and v.e. so they accompanied me to seek for DRESS! get me! is DRESS! O.M.G. i felt so wai wat, pondering that is it i really have to wear dress? i will look super funny and i will feel superb uncomfortable. i wont enjoy myself in that case. sigh.
after struggle for some times. YESH~! i chose a sexier top instead of dress! i feel SO RELIEVED! i can still with my jeans =D

we went for a place called - ALEXIS. at first we went for ampang's branch. who knows banana ass itchy switch to Bangsar's branch~
haha! dai sei. this place disappoint us cukup cukup. and so we switched to BSC's branch to continue second half.
didnt have much pictures to share. you know how to choose between SONY's camera and ciplak W810i, right?
so all these just from my phone. MUN TENG. I WANT THE PICTURES KAY.
by the way girl~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY! as i said, you need not my wish~ cox u got everything you need =D

disaster Alexis in Bangsar

BSC's branch

me and the wine +)

yam and i. she very kua jeong laR~ haha.

birthday girl mt with me =D

i tried to be lady that night. i've failed. again. yelling at the kanasai people who tend to start a fight with me =(

girls' big dae =)

2008-12-10T21:20:00.002+08:00

Owww~ so long did not update my blog bout my boring routine already! Today I must curi tulang in office! Cos’ the girl beside me on leave today. Ngek ngek. So I must grab this chance to tao lan since I wont get caught easily! XD

Lately, nothing much happen! Yup, ordinary yet contented life! Times filled with sleep, eat, drama, outings and workings! LIFELESS =O

But I’m happy. Nanananananana~ =D

* too much of pop up ideas I don’t know how to organize my words* =.=”

First, is December! Alright, I know everyone knows is December now~
Hey~ x’mas is around the corner~ and new year is on its way too~ =D
Alright, everyone knows this too.
Perhaps, December could be a special month for many of you, especially couples =p
As white Christmas gives people romantic feels, exchanging gifts, fireworks, counting down for new year as a remark that witnessing the arrival of brand new year, hand in hand.

Crap. This is not what I want to say initially.

Ok! Is SAGI’S BABIES month!
I must really spare this space out to make this shout out~

* H A P P I E - 2 0 T H – B I G D A E*

To my bestie – lesbie :

Veann Chia Vei Eeng – brought to this world on 04^th December 1988
Josephine Lim Vee Yee – brought to this world on 06^th December 1988
Mandy Ooi Mun Teng – brought to this world on 10^th December 1988
Genki Teoh Hui Mum – brought to this world on 14^th December 1988

No playing~ no fooling~ they are really all my besties~ other than Doris and Ultraman (my only besties whose not SAGI babie), these are the girls that grown up with me since Secondary! *eh hem, even I lost contact with v.e for some times but so what~ she’s always one of my bestie. =)

I knew them in CPR. The only thing I felt glad with staying in CPR for 3 years is that god sent them to me there. Without CPR, I will never find such amazing friend.

They always say that I am the luckiest girl cos I have them, the SAGI babies as my besties! I have to say, I AM. It’s really my pleasure of having them in my world!

I am not mei sun. but I really found them have certain similarities and I have to declare that staying with SAGI babies is the best!

They are FRIENDLY, yes they are! If you know them, especially Veann and Genki, you know you wont be able to find the word DULL in your life. They never fail to entertain you. Even the first time they met someone, after ten minutes the passer by will probably thought they are old buddies already. You try to keep your image? Forget it, with them, you’ll never have good image, I tried for like thousand times. They will make you laugh like mad somehow! If you ever wonder why Liew Phik Yin will have such siao za boh’s characters? Bare in mind, they are my master! *winkz

They are CARING, but in a very unique way. When you’re in woes, come on, they wont even bother, they will cont crapping and fooling around, doing some silly stuffs, sharing the life as usual, making ugly and exaggerating expressions as if you are just so healthy. Not that they don’t care. Is just that they know it doesn’t help with all the craps asking you not to be sad. They know you are just simply SAD. They will pull you out bits by bits from the woes without you realize it. End up, you will just a mad woman like how they are. But sometimes, they have another way too which is more to Veann’s. Which is, keep digging and digging your sad things as if it isn’t some sad things for you~ eventually, you will forget the woes by feel like PUCHING HER and LET HER REST IN PEACE! But they are damn caring okay. They will always let you feel warm. *grin

They are absolutely YAO YI HEI. They will always back you up. When you need them, they will never absent. NEVER. When I just broke up with him, they were there to let me lean on. And they accompanied me to do all the stupid stuffs. It was stupid! So so stupid! Reject a high pay job to acc you for your birthday. Where to find this kind of friend? Fetching you here and there to seek for someone who wasn’t even there. Where to find?

And what makes me feel glad is that they are really the best kind of friends.
they always overlook for the mistakes I’ve done, regardless how serious it is.
I was being such a bad person that even I couldn’t forgive myself for doing such idiotic things and hurt them who love me. But they did, they forgave me. They don’t agree with what I’ve done, but they never fail to play their role as a friend. I wouldn’t forget this. Without them, I am no one in this world, cause I’ll be ditched to somewhere else where I will be all by myself.

I LOVE YOU GIRLS. AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN. ANGEL WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU BLESSING YOU WITH ALL THE BESTEST THINGS.

P/S : NO DOUBT. THIS MONTH, THERE’LL BE A BIG HOLE IN MY POCKET. *sob

i am so stupid

2008-12-07T20:49:00.002+08:00

i am so stupid.
i've tried so hard to get myself back on the right track.
finally, i did.
when things are under control, i let it goes wrong.
and once it becomes out of hand, again, sardonically.

SO NOOB

but i aint gonna let it mess up my life. my ordinary yet contented life.
hoho. NO EMO.
i am still the HAPPY PHIK. *winkz

TQ babi!

2008-12-02T23:25:00.004+08:00

it delighted my day.

i finally got the EP for this!

thanks babi for buying me this. its kinda hard to get it in KL. =D

2008-12-02T23:16:00.003+08:00

i lost the necklace which you present me.

i dont know how i lost it as i remember i keep it somewhere safe.

just like i dunno how i lost you while i thought we were stable enough.

i know you already let me go. i need not any clarification.

i will let you leave, silently.

its quite upsetting.

but i am not the one who can decide how our story would be.

i am leaving, like you want it to be.

port dickson

2008-12-01T22:09:00.001+08:00

I spent my weekend in Port Dickson! Port Dickson, is always not my favourite place to hang out. Because the sea water is always worse than longkang water at my house. But it doesn’t really matter when you are with bunch of buddies, right? ^^

Few members of form 6 kia join the trip.

Doris – wife of Joe. My lesbie.
Jason – the organizer for this trip. The fei lou. The lollipop man.
Phik – me. The leng lui. Bwahahahaha XD later kena spam. Die.
Foong Li – the sensitive girl. Her skin is her sei yut.
Joe – hubby of Doris. The big bully.
Mun Yew – the vegetarian, got no gf before. Bwahaha. He’s good man anyway.
Nicholas – the emo king. *slap
Keng Hoi – the genius monk *winks

We said we want to take lot lotsa photos but end up, the memory of my camera is not much used up. *sigh*. But we had fun anyway. This will keep in our heart. Need not much pictures to recall it. =)

We only reach PD around 2 due to the traffic congestion.

seductive kan?

ish it reveals my pig leg. haha

it should be a very nice photo. but sigh. mun yew's shaky hand ruins everything.

So after we settled everything we went for lunch to fill our stomach.
PD’d food is just SO NOT NICE. I cant manage to finish all the meals I’ve taken there. So nan sik. Pictures tell lie, but taste will never. SOB.

Drop by here after lunch. haha

what kind of stupid poses are these?

Soon after we back to Resort the guys tak sabar sabarwanna go beach dy. So we girls have to tak sabar sabar also lar. The nicest timing to take picture but too bad none of us were free to take care of camera. Hee. So got no best shot.

After gila gila session, chang chang~ BBQ time arrived! FINALLY! Haha!

doris and mun yew

i actually ask them to pose LO.V.E shape. incorporate. bad.

the leftover, soon dihabiskan within 10 mins.

do you know what is the highlight of the day? i.e, i bathed with Doris! haha. i tried to keep it low profile kay so no bold or anything. but i dy told! XD. first time in my life i bath with my friend! i guess joe jealous me lor! haha

We had beer session later on. No picture cox later parents see how? Haha. but we are all good boys and good girls. We only drank one small bottle. And I almost drunk. Just ALMOST. Haha I am not used to taking up alcohol. I don’t think it is nice. Only Shandy is my favourite. Hee.

And kononnye itu people sekalian said want to stay up that night. Who knows the first who slept was Doris. Forgivable cos’ she was not feeling well. And then follow uo by Aw or Mun Yew I forgot. Sigh. Mun Yew somemore “I want to stay up,I insist”. Betul betul disappointing. But I eventually woke him up cos’ we wanted to fish! Tee hee. I was taking the fishing rod which was taller than me and hoping that wen can reach our destination asap. I never have such boring activity before so I want t try! =D but sady, the route to the island has closed. So we went there with full hope and back with full disappointment. Except Mun Yew that already “fishing” from the very start! Haha.

After we reached the Resort, again everyone was rushing into the room to fulfill their fishing dream. Mamamiya~ its 3 something in the morning and I don’t wanna sleep yet. Kept kacauing them from falling asleep but no one bother. Itu celaka Mun Yew even locked the door so I couldn’t go in and kacau them. I was BOYCOTTTED! I had to settle down in living room with Nic, the emo king. Hoho. I though he was doing his assignment so I dare not to kacau him. Looking at my phone crying cox no one I can kacau in late night. Been sighing and worrying how I gonna make it to chang till sun rise. Finally! The emo king took the initiative to talk to me. HOW TOUCH. =p
Else I gonna rotten for the whole night! And hereby I became the pro counselor listened to his emo story. *slap. Always emo *slap. Not good for health don’t you know? *slap slap.

*tick tick tick

Its 6 in the morning and finally we both feel sleepy. Yawn. Squeezed ourselves to fit into the sofa and has forty winks. I only sleepy for an hour. Undoubtedly, I was gg in the morning though I was the one who sang good morning song to wake the other pigs up. And my whole body ache!!!
Even we went to beach and they played volleyball I cant even join. Cause I was so blur and in real slow motion. When the big volleyball was accelerating towards me, I did nothing but witnessed the process it hit my breast. Darn PAIN okay.

We went to Ostrich Park before we moved our ass back to KL. So sad case. So pathetic. So miserable. Each time I went to park or zoo in Malaysia I will feel sorry for the animals. For god sake why they will never take good care of them?! They are just the abandoned creature of the planet in there! They look sick, starved! Their living place is much worse than “mountain of trashes”! they are just afflicting the living things. It’s a sin okay!

see they are starved.

kelian. T.T

And hou yi si name themselves as Ostrich Park and require entrance fee while even kecil miao utar campus is bigger than them! Sia sui. We all just had to accept that we did charity by donating them the entrance fees. sigh

i finally move it move it!

2008-11-27T23:00:00.001+08:00

I like to move it move it~
She likes to move it move it~
We like to move it move it~

Haha!

After sooooooooooooooooo long~ Madagascar! I gotcha!

Its nice! Though I thought move it move it song will play throughout the movie!

But some kind of sad thing happen which is we chose the wrong place, wrong cinema! I went to a PASAR LIKE GSC CINEMA in IOI MALL.

Disaster!

With babies behind “yi yi yak yak”

Some 10 years old girls in front me playing with the bras they just bought and lit matches (trying to be romantic I guess, SHIT), giggling and chuckling like they own the cinema. “discussing” the storyline with their earsplitting tone. Think, does a cartoon movie like “Madagascar” need you to discuss in that way. Duh. Sis and I were enduring, trying hard to concentrate to move it move it yet still distracted.

Let’s make my sis as the watak sampingan for this blog. Her pleasure ^^

She fell asleep during the movie, SHE’S OLD. Don’t you agree? No more child-ness.

AND.

I found out she’s the Gloria and her bf is the Melman. You’ll know why, right? the size tells.

After all, the movie is NICE. THUMBS UP!

Paid a visit to my driver! Pei wen! She’s rich. Get 3k in a month. She misses me a lot! I know! (I convinced myself that) haha!

Bye~ have to cont my drama session *winks

untagged

2008-11-26T21:26:00.002+08:00

Name : PhikYin, Liew
Sisters : 1
Brothers : 0
Shoe size : 5
Height : 1.49 m, to be converted to 1.50m haha.
Where do you live : Cheras, Malaysia
Favorite drinks : Milo kao, dark mocha, ribena, vitagen, drinking water
Favorite breakfast : eggs, hams, bacon, sausage, porridge
Have you ever been on a plane : Yes, Air Asia only.
Swam in the ocean : Yes
Fallen asleep in school : ALWAYS
Fell off your chair : forget~
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Yes and it is very stupid to do so.
Saved e-mails : i dont check mails.
What is your room like : dirtier and messier than my hamster's house.
What's right beside you : cell phone, spect, cigarette yada yada
What is the last thing you ate : Hershey's choc from langkawi to un-blue my mode.
Q: When did you cry last : few hours ago. let my dad gik. EMO
Q: Are you a friendly person: yes i guess?
Q: Do you have any pets : MacMac (my dog), gulugulu and mulumulu (my hamsters)
Q: Where is the person you have feelings for right now : i wish i know the answer.
Q: Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? : Yes.
Q: Do you sleep with the TV on? : Seldom. dad will scold.
Q: What are you doing right now? : untagged this tag. hoho
Q: Have you ever crawled through a window? : dont think so.
Q: Can you handle the truth? : Maybe?
Q: Are you closer to your mother or father? : Mother
Q: Who was the last person you cried in front of? : my family which cause world war 3.
Q: How many people can you say you've really loved? : you tell me lar.
Q: Do you eat healthy? : nope. prefer fast food and junk food.
Q: Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: Yes. keep it well and safe.
Q: Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : yup. it hurts i guess.
Q: How often do you go to church?: amithaba. im not Christian.
Q: If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? : myself. mature or pathetic.
Q: Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: Loud
Q: Are you confident?: depends.
Q: Favorite Quote: if you didnt get what you want, just sit tight and be happy because god is thinking something better to give you.

Q: Things I was doing 10 years ago..
1.being ho dong si in the school.

Q: Things on my to-do list today.
1. finish the chocolate in office. (accomplished)
2. fishing during work. (accomplished)
3. sleep earlier.

Q: 5 snacks I enjoy..
1. honey star
2. ice cube.
3. -
4. -
5. whatever i can find in my house kay.

Q: 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire.. (By Order)
1. travel around the world
2. shopping without examining the price.
3. give the best for parents.
4. donate.
5. idea less.

Q: 5 of my bad habits..
1. hot tempered.
2. negative thinker in certain circumstances.
3. dont like to be alone.
4. impatient.
5. no sense of direction towards everything in life.

Q: 5 places I have lived in..
1. My current house
2. My old house
3. aunts' house.
4. genki's house
5. hotel sekalian.

Q: 5 jobs I've had..
1. general cleark at mom's placce.
2. promoter for a shop somewhere in time square.
3. promoter for ROMP (sucks!)
4. daddy's girl.
5. mommy's girl.

Q: 5 people I tag..
1. doris
2. pikwah
3. beatrice
4. junjun
5. nicholas

blue mode

2008-11-26T21:12:00.001+08:00

blue mode has been activated!

i am so blue~

ocean blue~

this B L U E

i want to cry

*tut

2008-11-25T00:34:00.000+08:00

im so in holiday mood.

i dont want to work.

i want vacation!!! =O

langkawi ~~~~

2008-11-23T23:23:00.006+08:00

Yuhoo~ I just back from Langkawi~! A family trip! Grr. I dunno how should I update cause is a 4days 4nights vacation. If I want to update everything, you probably need one whole night to read. And im sure that Im incapable to type everything out. Im just so unorganized. I’ll try not to make it so dull kay.

19^th November 2008

This day was a makan day for us. We dropped by Ipoh to settle our breakfast.

First station was curry mee.

Second station was bread session. Tee hee. The bowl is empty cause I forgot to take picture when it arrived. LOL. All I know was EAT.

Then we accompany my dad to Ipoh labor office to settle some stuffs. Here we grabbed another chance to judge HOW EFFICIENT the gov*rnm*nt is. you can just see my dad walking through and flow from this block to another block, this department to another department just because the “smart” gov*rnm*nt people is trying to evade from taking more duties. I really pissed off. They even tell lie to my dad just to halau my dad *speechless. I really don’t know why. Why they will never change their working attitude.

We supposed to go Taiping as our next stop. But due to the gov*rnm*nt pro procrastination skill, we were forced to cancel the plan but headed to Penang straight away. Then we met our uncle at Tambun I guess for seafood session.

the view at seafood places.

Haha, its’s just the leftover cos’ we were all like ngo gao ciong si like that.

the ugly si ham.

We ate a lot but you wont be able to see any photo for food anymore cos’ due to my laziness, tiredness, and desperate-for-foodness, I didn’t even take the leftover.

Later on we reach Penang and we check in at Paradise Sandy Beach Resort. We stayed one night at Penang before we go Langkawi.

fat hao me with penang sea view.

the fat hao family haha.

tak habis habis. gosh. so so what~

……….. im very lazy to tell in details already. Hope the photo will tell you my journey. XD

20^th November 2008

holiday villa. place where we stayed.

my room. im quite satisfy with the accommodation. even though i cant sleep tight throughout the trip. sigh.

got mini LCD somemore. chun

Underwater world. Yup, another disappointment.

the penguins are just so cute can.

tadang~ my nanny. first pic of hers in my blog.

please ignore my sakai look. Im just trying to tell how gigantic the stingray is. hee. the stingray is smiling man. its being too syok cox can take picture with me. XD

21^st November 2008

in the boat. *peace my relatives sekalian. too bad my sis not in here. she was capturing this leng photo.

Mangrove swamp & Eagle feeding.

Bat cave. All the black dots are the sleeping bats. Scary nye~ later it tershit on my head. Haha

Outside the cave there were a lot of monkey walking around. Like friends of us only lor.

Fish feeding.

We can feed the stingray you see, but too bad im very timid. Im not dare to feed it. Just dare to touch it. Its skil like jelly lor. Very geli. Haha

This creature call apa in English? Doesn’t matter. This is my cousin sister. Is quite sad to tell that she’s only 10 years old and already taller than me. Her brother who only 14 years old also reach 177 cm already. I seriously look like dwarf when standing with them.

bird park.

gimme gimme. gimme fate. bwahahahha. sai sui.

eagle heng dai lan sook with me =D

Cable car session.

Very nice scenery. Like in heaven and im angel. Haha

me in the cable car

My mom was pretty scare and she screamed in the cable car till she almost cry.

22nd November 2008

only grabbed the chance to take photo with the beach.

2008-11-17T21:18:00.003+08:00

Watched “Quarantine” last Saturday, but it was not my intention to watch it at first. I actually wanna watch “Madagascar2” la. T.T but due to my ass unintchiness before that, I didn’t make any reservation or get the ticket earlier. If you know what will happen at Mid valley’s GCS Cinema ticket counter in Saturday noon, you probably will know that I will never queue. So I’ll have to move to The Garden to spend another RM20 for the premier class over there. That is the cheapest ticket there already. But sigh, the session that I want for “Madagascar” sold out already. So sad! I want “

Madagascar

” lar! Then I saw this movie “Quarantine”, I watched its preview before. No bad one. I put some expectation on this movie. And the counter boy told me is nice too. So I just watched this lor. Happy though. But sigh, rather another disappointing movie. After you find out what is the story line, what you can look forward is just the people suddenly pop up then make you scream.

Did I scream? I think I didn’t lar. Just like get shock. And while im shocked, the one beside me is laughing. So potong steam kan? So how can I concentrate and yansiong this movie. This people cacat, since young already dedicated with all the ghost stories. So all these thrill movie is just another joke for this people. Next time, I’ll just watch some comedy when with this people. Then I wont feel so squeezed.

And, really think twice before you wanna bring me to any formal function. My advise. Haha. I guess I skipped this part for last last Saturday outing, when I was walking to my seat in cinema, I stepped on a guy’s leg, then I quickly apologize. Right after I apologized to the person, I stepped another guy’s leg again who sit beside the first guy. Really embarrassing lar. I wonder is it GSC Signature’s got fewer spaces to let people pass through. So last Saturday I tried all my effort not to make the same mistake anymore and only pass through after made sure that people’s leg is not on the floor. While I thought I will be safe. *oops. This is what happen, I kicked the person’s slipper. But I saw the slipper is still there. So I just apologized again. After I found my seat and ready to rest in peace, I saw that fella was looking for something at the lower level. OOPS. Rupanye I’ve kicked his slipper to the seat in front of him!! Yeah, no doubt, I apologized many times again.

You see this, this thingie call “Treasure Box”, is a combination with various fruits, ice-cream, cinnamon, raisins, dollar pan cake with honey. Its nice. But I think if we call it “Trash Can” will be more ngam. Tee hee.

Hot mocha with love shape! Haha. Romantic drink! But have to break its heart if we wanna drink. Mm she dak lar. Lame~

Oh ya, you know that is a must for me to go Pet’s Wonderland everytime I go Mid Valley right. Cause got cute cute puppy there! And lotsa hamsters there. Every time I go there I will get hyperp! But I saw something very brutal that day which make me feel sad and it irritated me. I saw a gang of hamster is eating one of the hamster which already died! Very menjijikkan. They were attacking his head biting his head! Oh god, is Dwarf Hamster. I sure I wont rear this species de hamster jor. Sweat!!! Eating someone who looks alike you! How cruel!! After I got home even when I see my gulugulu I feel, why you’re so not cute today. *vomit

2008-11-14T11:17:00.002+08:00

It would be a really random post because I gonna sum up the whole week story to blog. Get yourself ready to be MCC again.

First, let me introduce this, Baskin Robin’s cake – the disaster. It looks SO HORRIBLE. It is SO DIFFERENT from the catalogue. Kinda speechless with that. Just wanna share with you guys with its HORRIBLE LOOK.

mom's

dad's

Guess what is this? Advanced leh. Is my dad’s birthday card like ang pao. Wakaka. We made it spontaneously with our creativity and talent. Very hou teng. Actually is last minute work. XD For the past years my sis and I will buy something for him instead of cash, more meaningful right? But this year really ran out of idea what to buy for him. Some of those we bought for him he hasn’t started to use yet. He prefer things with hole and his smelly nam yan mei. Kaka.

He very stupid lor. He thought we made him this card for his birthday only. (we actually did the same to my mom before) no wonder he just put the card aside after we gave him. He only find out the T-shirt got isi when he beh tahan ask us “my birthday present like that only ar?” haha funny lar. Like little boy feel disappointed when didn’t get present for birthday. =)

On the middle of T-shirt, we wrote: p/s. if you tear this, you tear our heart.” This is to prevent him from using it wakakaka. In the other words we are saving money for him.

I’ve watched “007 Quantum of Solace” last Saturday. Is better than the previous one, cox previous one really boring, till you can hear my mom’s snoring voice in the cinema. Though is better, but still so-so only for me. Maybe I prefer the previous James Bond. He got more James Bond’s feel.

Starbucks’ Dark Cherry Mocha Frapuccino would be nice if it could be Dark Cherry Mocha Frapuccino Without Cherry. Hoho. But I personally feel it is better than Toffe Nut bla bla.

Anything else? The last one, I become ah poh these 3 days. As a result of being gu lei in office. Carrying up to few hundred files from first to ground floor through and flow. I don’t exercise. So you know this put me to death obviously. Hand pain, back pain, leg pain. I estimate for coming 5 years I need not to exercise anymore because I’ve done it in advance. *winks

Last but not least, eh hem.

Quote of the day “a smiley egg a day, keeps the sorrow away” =D chun.

Don’t ask me why I like to play with eggs. It’s not my intention. The egg with smiley is actually Mac Mac’s egg. Mac Mac is on a weight gain plan after the vet said he’s underweight. So damn, he tries to gain weight while im trying REAL “hard” to lose some weights.

Eh? So little “haha” in this blog? So not me. Oh cox im in office now. Have to be jing ging. Pro.

2008-11-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

Had dinner with my girls at Delicious @ Bangsar Village.

The place is like second home of Banana. But Banana is a bit too much yesterday, lost her sense of direction cos her baby monster is not with her probably. We grabbed the chance to enjoy the night scenery as she keep asking this question: “where is this place?” “eh, how I got here one?”, “I got no idea which is the direction to go Bangsar.” *sweat

She always goes there, but she tells as if she’s so new to the place like me. =.=” we even nearly drove into a parking lot at the working tower to find our way.

Delicious. Is a nice place to hang out and gossip gossip. As they have nice sofa and nice environment.

The lighting is nice. I wish to take pictures together with these things. Can I climb up? If they allow and there is a way, I will.

The food is not bad too. Even yam has a bad impression towards the food. Tee hee.

These are my girls.

Yam and I. she and banana always smile until very fake. I have to teach them jor I guess. Haha. But lately I’m facing the same problem too. Don’t know how to smile jor. She’s the water supplier for banana and I during form 5. We never bring water to school and we finish the whole bottle of her water as if she doesn’t need to drink. End up, she bring 1.5litre water instead of 500ml. smart girl make smart decision. *winks

Banana and I. we have to cam whore ourselves cox yam doesn’t know how to take photo. And this picture is with our big head as a result of banana’s short hand XD. Banana leng leh. I always carry her in school last time. Although she’s taller than me but she’s look protected lor. Even I see her I feel like protecting this girl so much. Now, she becomes darn lady already while I’m still with my T-shirt and short pants. Hee. And she got her baby monster to protect and spoil her after so long. I truly hope they can last forever. They really match. If you see her, you couldn’t believe that a cute little girl like her is a doctor in future. Is just unconvincing! XD

Now, I gonna start read the novel called “P.S I LOVE YOU”, I know this book/movie is quite long ago and for once quite hito one lor. Haha. My house got this movie but I lazy to watch. Now ass itchy wanna read. Reading makes someone very yao hei zat. =p
Let’s see how long it takes for me to finish it. I still got lotsa comics waiting for me!

SO BUSY.

Currently addicted to the songs call:
Chinese : jj lim, wo hai xiang ta. The lyrics just touch my heart.
English : In The Ayer, Florida feat. Will I.am. Low2 I name it. But not so syok lar. I still love it, can?
Lucky, Jason Mraz & Colby Calliat. This song suit the sweet sweet couple. I make it sweet sweet for single me as well *winks

I didn’t mention bout my birthday because I don’t really feel happy that day. I just uploaded some of the photos in my friendster. But still, I feel glad that I have my girls with me that day. Thank you so much. I treasure you and I still enjoy the moment I spend with you guys. Muackz~ =)